Friday, February 27, 2009
good time with myself
i'm home alone.
sis is out with boyfriend.
dad and mum is at auntie's place.
boy is working.
yes, i spend my night reading story book.
read half of "it's called BREAK UP cause IT'S BROKEN".
not that me and my boy have problems,
but this book caught my eye off my book shelf.
been 2years since i last touch this book?
i start to reflect and laugh at myself for being foolish in the past.
i find this part very true.
"i just needed to know. i needed an answer so that another few years of my life wouldn't be wasted with empty promises.he said he couldn't make a decision right now and asked for some time.i gave him time.and asked him again four weeks later, and he said he still don't know.well, that's an answer, right?not caring enough to even think about it seems like an answer, doesn't it?If you wanted to be with me, it would have cross your mind to think about it.If you wanted to be with me, you'd do whaever it took to make it work.If you wanted to be with me, you'd know.you'd know.For years, I thought "i don't know" and "i don't know if I can" were words that meant what they said.But from that moment on i knew.... "i don't know" means NO."i don't know" means i'm too corwardly to tell you the truth because i can't deal with confrontation."i don't know" means please do the dirty work for me because i don't want to hurt your feelings even more than i already have."okay, off my om to watch drama with mama.
signing off-huiminz
Labels: reflection time...
She Smiled At10:06 PM
