i'm feeling up and down, left and right, front and back.
all sort of funny feelings.
i just don't feel settled.
as in, my thoughts just run wild.

some say we'll get results next mon or tue.
others told me we'll get results on the 8th of feb, which is next thurs.
some claim that it's next friday.
and know what?
one of my secondary school teacher told my sister that the hall will be out-of-bound this friday cuz we are getting results.

oh. just which one is true?
i dislike the feelings i'm experiencing now.
the question still remains unanswered: JC or POLY?

"the formula for a successful relationship is simple:
treat all disasters as if they are trivialities,
but never treat a triviality as if it was a diaster."
-quoted from atiqah.
she never fails to inspire me with her meaningful quotes.
(:

time is sliping away from my hand.

(:
everyday is a great day.
tmr is gonna be a great day.
signing off-huiminz

Labels: mixed feelings, unanswered questions.

She Smiled At10:16 PM

(:
though i didnt start my day with a smile, but i did end it with a smile.
yanling and yingqi darlings have made my day.
it was really once in a blue moon since we three got together.
we really had lots of talking to do, i shall not say it's gossipping.
time just slips away silently without us noticing.
and we parted.
[it sound a little drama..
but we didnt kiss goodbye.cuz we are not les.=x]

oh. tmr is tuesday.
i hate tuesdays.
and yes, i'm weird.
i hate tuesdays cuz we got to go sch late.
and that means daddy wouldnt fetch me to school.
oh, how sickening.
and i hate tuesdays.
cuz starting sch later means we have to end sch another hour later.
*moans and groans*
but wat's the use of complaining though.
just get used to it...

mixed feelings have strike me.
it's not a sudden kind of thing.
but the fact is results are out next week.
_simple yet complicated_


and i wonder and wonder again.
signing off-huiminz

Labels: i love yingqi and yanling..

She Smiled At10:47 PM

it's just another week.

oh.
once again, i'm SLOW.
yes, i'm like so lag behind.

sigh.
everything in blogger have changed.
we are sort of being force to change into google account instead.
anyway, it doesnt really matter now, as long as i still can blog.
(:

welfare committee of student council in SRJC rawks.
in short, welco rawks.
they are so so efficient.
i'm the overall-in-charge for the tee shirt thingy.
and they didnt cause any problem to me for everyone(except a few) brought the required amount as told.
and yeah! i feel so high cuz i'm collecting money.
[it just remind me of being a treasurer in 4e3,06' in JYSS.]

my class 1S20 seems to be so so hyper.
it's as though we have known each other for long.
it's really great being part of the class.
but somehow, we will leave out some people at times.
sigh, power of e3 still rawks though.

and it's like oh my god.
results are out in 2weeks' time.

next week will be gone soon.
cuz my schedule is tight as usual.
so time will pass more quickly like this.

i got to run.
need to tutor my cousin right after this.

still, there are tons of people i miss.

signing off-huiminz

Labels: time flies.

She Smiled At1:01 PM

a picture paints a thousand words.
i really miss secondary school.

i miss my usual clicks.
sijia and jasmine and peishan and mary and yingqi.
how i wish to turn back time.
i miss them.

i miss someone especially.
i miss yanling.
i really miss her.
i miss her accompany and craps.
i miss her advice and lending land and listening ear.
oh please, i really miss her.
[i better stop before i get too emotional.]

everything in SRJC wasnt too bad.
i could still get along with most of my classmates.
i do get lost in the lessons here and there.
but yup, i did clarify it with my tutors.

sigh.
the problem is..
you see?
i don't wish to move on.
i'm still handing on to the "i want go back secondary school" metality.

i'm getting so sick of myself.

save me someone.
can i just stop at the secondary school era?

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At6:35 PM

boo!
it's sunday once again.
oh well, it just means that there are school tomorrow.

anyway, i realise that i havnt been uploading photos for quite some time.
so here i am, uploading some photos i have taken yesterday.
(:

the bag rawks, isnt it?
it's white. weeee. and and i bring it to sch everyday.(:

i have been wearing contact lens for 6months.
which is 1/2 a year.
see? time flies.
just some photos of me.
(:
simply me.

.

sister and i.
(:
i love her to bits.

that's all for today.
i'm off to planning my scedule for the week.

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At12:01 PM

just a random post here.

it seems that things are not that bad after all.
we just look at things at a different perspective and there may be a twist in situation.

oh. time really flies.
we are going to go into the 4th week of year 2007.
fast, isnt it?

lectures after lectures, tutorial afte tutorial.
my permernant timetable for the pervious week was still alright.
just that the break shouldnt be so long.
for example, i have 2hrs break on mon.

oh yes.
actually computing is not that difficult afterall.
perhaps, it's just my mindset from the start.

anyway, i came across this msn nick yesterday.
"opportunity cost of msn-ing is to study for 1hr."
oh my god, so true.=x
but it's just the start of jc life, how much work can there be, right?

and i got to run.
blog more next time.

i going to attend my cousin 21st bdae.
i may upload a photo or two.

cuz i choose to believe..
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:04 AM

fun yet tiring.
that's the typical statement everyone will give when he/she returns from a chalet.
i'm of no execption.
if i am suppose to give a summary on my class chalet,
i can only say it's simple awesome.
i could feel the whole chalet filled with laughter, fun, warmth and of love.
i just feel so blessed, as if 4e3,06' is one big family.(:
seriously, i dun wish the chalet to end so soon.
why do these wonderful memories fade away as time flies?
oh, is everyone moving on?

sigh.
i felt so lost after the chalet.
suddenly, i so strongly feel the urge to be back to my secondary school days.
then, my heart is once again flooded with misses of the past.

i feel so lost.
maybe it's really true that "isolation is felt most profoundly among the crowd."
i just felt so lonely in class.
[though at times i got accompany.]

i feel so lost.
i know totally nothing about computing.
i feel so stupid in the computer lab reading those C++ programme stuff.
it's driving me nuts.
i want to shout.

i feel so lost.
i don't even know everyone in the student council.
and now we are rushing in planning chinese new year stuff.
i feel so blur at times.
[the only plus plus point is that i have friends from the same oreientation group with me in student council.]
other than that, ARGH.

am i lost in my own world?
or am i just not used to the new surroundings?

still, i stand firmly that i must complete the whole trail in jc.

i'm so worn out.
time seems to be running out.
in a few weeks times and results will be out.

"absence can make the heart grow fonder"
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At8:41 PM

i'm just back from cca fair in JYSS.
oh, the atmosphere are just there.
love JYSS choir lots.
(:

anyway, i got into council in SRJC.
(:
the upcoming event is chinese new year stuff.
weeeee. hope to grow and have fun learning.

since i may not even go srjc after my 3months.cuz i may go tpjc or temasek poly.
the more i should make full use of the 3months to make more frenz, as well as to grow more.

oh yesh, i have GP[general paper] tutorial and MATHS tutorial on monday.
sigh. have a few assignment to complete before attending tutorial.
i rushed my work for i'm packed with stuff over the weekends.
i ended up sleeping at 1plus last nitez. oh gosh.

and tomorrow is 4e3,06' class chalet.
weeeee.
i know i have repeat this lots of time, but i still wanna emphasis that I MISS SECONDARYY SCHOOL, especially power of e3.
awww, i miss my fellow schoolmates as well as my clicks.
i better stop before i go rattling on again.

my packed schedule:
13/01[sat]
-help out in sec sch cca fair.
-go JB

14/01[sun]
-return from JB
-attend class chalet

15/01[mon]
-sch day
-attend class chalet

16/01[tue]
-sch day

17/01[wed]
-sch day
-cca day

18/01[thurs]
-sch day
-tutor cousin maths

19/01[fri]
-sch day
-cca day

oh.. this is schedule for the week.
time will fly.

anyway, my post is rather random.

just a contradicting quote before i end.
"isolation is felt most profoundly among a crowd"

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At12:46 PM

perhaps, there are still some problems with the internet connection.
cuz i couldnt get into blogger for the past few days.

and i have just gotten my subject combintation today.
i'm taking h2 maths, h2 physics, h2 computing and h1 economics.
alright, that's my second choice.
i chose h2 maths, h2 physics, h2 econonics and h1 chemistry as my first choice.
but, sigh. i didnt do that well in prelims for chemistry.
and ya, shouldnt complain that much.
cuz at least i'm given my second choice.

sigh. need to make new frenz again.
cuz from what i know, none of the frenz i made in my orientation group is in the same class as me.

had lectures after lectures.
and i'm so worn out.
oh, i have maths and english homework.

should i?
should i not?
these two questions keep popping in my mind.
about the cca.
and about where i should go when i obtain my o level results.
and about lots and lots of stuff.

time really flies.
i have been in this JC trail thingy for a week or so.
(:
and the best news is currently, i survived.

i must complete the whole JC trail thingy.
believe.

i'm looking forward for the class chalet,
YET dun wish to go for the class chalet.
i know it sound kind of contradicting.
but ya, i'm looking forward cuz i really really miss power of e3.
dun wish to go cuz that might be the last meeting as a class.
contradiction.

blog more this weekend.
oh yes.
i'm away from town this weekend.
so..
i'll blog the next time i'm free.
(:
till then.

DREAMs
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At2:04 PM

shucks.
i nearly teared just now when i'm back at junyuan secondary school this afternoon.
being alone just makes my thoughts run wild.

there are just a whole junk of misses once again.
though i only did the following things.
i just loiter around the classroom blocks.
and slack around the canteen area.
i even visit the toilets.
also, i walked down the empty hall, as well as parade square.

i kept staring at the quiet and empty classroom.
oh, how i miss those times when everyone listen attentively to the teachers in class.
and also those times when we buried our heads in our textbook when o level is near.
somehow i also miss those times when the noise level get higher and higher when everybody are busy chit-chatting.
not to miss out those times when we have recess with other class mates.
oh well well, those times.

i still miss JYSS.

oh yes.
a big news today.
i am late for school.
late for school when today is only the 4th day.
oh who bothers?
well, i'm not exactly very late.
i'm just a few minutes late.
argh, shouldnt blame me for missing the bus right?

anyway, the SRJC temporary timetable for the JC1 students offically started from today.
it will stop when we get our actual subject combination this coming thursday.

i skipped bio lecture today.
so i have a 1 and 1/2 hr break instead of the 1/2 hr.
oh, i am so blessed to have accompany from my new friends.
thanks to su luan, chia hui, grace and especially yenting and nadia.

yes, their accompany made me feel belonged.
their accompany made me feel that someone still cares.

but sigh.
i still miss my old clicks.
yanling, sijia, jasmine, peishan, mary. yingqi. how are you guys doing?
cheryl, i miss having recess with you.
oh big big sigh.
there are still so much misses to be mention.

i feel a little weird changing the my language of communication.
everything just seems to be so ENGLISH.
oh gosh.

life have to move on.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At8:11 PM

oh.
before i start blogging about today, i should blog about one of my new year resolution.
i must complete the whole jc trail thingy.
yes, a MUST.
no matter how long the journey is.
no matter how tired i get everyday.
no matter how lonely i may get.
no matter whether in the end i gt into other jc or poly.
no matter what.
i MUST not give up half-way.
(:
the word is believe.
believe in myself.
believe that i can.

yeah!
i had gotten my merit bursary yesterday.
(:

oh gosh.
those cheers of the orientation camp, as well as the school song and college dance, still runs in my mind.
"SRJC all for you.
your call is ours too."
and and, i think i havnt mention this.
my orientation group , ARGO, won.
(:

today, i wake up, had breakfast and.....
i better save my craps and get into main point.
went out with claudia today.
we heeded to the pasir ris beach.
and it's so coincidence, someone is getting married there.
oh, how romantic, right?
but i guess it would be even better if the venue is in sentosa.
oh well, it's none of my business anyway.
had so much catch-up to do with claudia.
it's really a wonderful day.
except the fact that i got sunburn.
and i think i look more malay. cuz my skin colour is so so dark.

havnt been blogging these few days.
cuz everytime i come home from SRJC, i'm busy with 4e3,06' class chalet.
finally, i manage to call all the people who i place them in-charge of some items.
(:
phew.
and in case i miss out anyone, 4e3,06' class chalet will be on the 14th, 15th and 16th jan.
bbq will be on the 14th and 15th.

had a small chat with auntie jasmine just now.
she was talking about my o levels results that will be out in mid-feb.
sigh.
i still vacillate between tpjc[tampines jc] and srjc[serangoon jc] and tp[temasek poly].
thinking too much just cause me another headache.
i shouldnt bother this much now, cuz results are not even out yet.

some of us are schooling.
while a portion are working.
the rest are just slacking.
sometimes, it's just so hard to get people together.

simple life.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At8:02 PM

ARGH!
school days again.

oh well, orientation in SRJC had been a great one.
of course, i had made lots and lots of friends.
also, i know the subject combination and stuff.
had games and cheers and dance and everything-nice.

well, i'll start attending lectures and tutorial.
starting offially from next week.
sigh. studying.zzz.

oh yes, no matter how good SRJC treat me,
i still miss JYSS.
i miss the familiar faces, the near distance, the assembly ground.
and and the toilets!

yeah! i survive through the 3days.
still another month or so, before results are released.
still another 4weeks or so, before i decide to go poly or stay in jc.
still another 30 days or so......

i may neglect him.
i may be busy.
but.
i still love him.
(:

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At9:01 PM

"An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in.
A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves."
-quoted from atiqah.

yes, it's a new year.
whereby we all have new revolution, go new school and make new frenz.
we also have to adapt to the new environment sooner or later.

but sigh.
how can anyone adapt that fast?
i still miss everything is JYSS.

oh yes,daddy brought me to serangoon jc yesterday.
the journey was rather short, about 20minutes or so.
but i still have to walk from home to bus-stop and from bus-stop to school.
plus i have to wait for bus.
so it's around 45minutes or so.
*moans and groans*

and i'm starting school tomorrow.
oh, how should i feel?

i have finish teaching my sister her sec 2 express maths
i have finish teaching my cousin 1/4 of her primary 5 maths

simple. simplify. simplification.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At5:09 PM

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