email by ning en.
i was real touched man.
her letter really touched my heart.
thanks sweety..=)

rebecca. yan ling. li hin. hui zhuang. kelly. wanny. joshua. sharon. huiminz(me..)
all of us went swimming except joshua and sharon.
we went to rebecca's house there to swim.
fun.=)
had great time with rebecca, yan ling and li hin. had a heart-to-heart chat...=)

nothing much to blog today.
my eyes are closing soon.
so tired.
*yawn*

excited for tmr..
going out with mummy and daddy..=)

[let's face the reality.
it had become a fact...=) ]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At8:52 PM

6101.
the new handphone model mummy got for me as birthday present.=)
love this flip phone.
got a change of handphone plan.
wow, finally what i wanted after waiting for 2 years..[wahaha..]
from 300 free sms-es to 1000 free sms-es..
good good..=)
this handphone is cool.....
however, all the photos in my previous phone cant be sent over to my new phone by infra-red..='(
and all the messages in my old phone cant transferred..='(

went to changi village to have dinner.
saw jackson and jia le there.
i was so pai seh..=x

went out the whole day.
anyway, my legs are starting to ache.
due to all the walking, jumping, running during the camp..='(

hui min, doris, pei ni, sheng sheng, feng xin...
they are some frenz known from the choir school exchange programme.
hmm, so many pple is called huimin? haha..=p

going back to sch for choir stuff..
to pack up the mess after the camp..
sickening...=p

choir choir all the way..
i love choir more and more..=)
the unity in us..
the special choir..=)

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At8:05 PM

a change in time schedule.
the choir camp has become 2 days one nitez.
why? cause there is no teacher-in-charge available to look after us.
='(
disappointed.
however, i did had fun during these 2 days.

as a vice-chairman of choir, i felt very proud during the school exchange programme with DUNEARN SECONDARY SCHOOL. this is because, so far, this is the best practice we had come up with.....=)
choir rawks..=)
had made a few new frenz.=)
the people there are very friendly..

anyway, we had night amazing race during the first night.
i was in-charge of one of the stations(at the back of the parade square).
was standing there for about 1 hour or so.
admire the beautiful sky and stars..=)
back to the amazing race, there is a "fear-factor" section.
really enjoyed myself though my face was all covered with flour while playing the section..=p

the choir got real crazy when it comes to "disco-nitez" section.
everyone was so sporty..=)
real glad to see the positive attitude of choir.=)
each group came up with their cheers and group name.
we also had a 5-7 minute performance.

yea, my group which is group 4(group's name: wat's up) got 151/200 for the "disco-nitez" section..=)
*clap clap..*
wanna thank my group members(amanda, yong shuang, kelly, pearlyn,loratha...) for their cooperation..[i will never forget the bonding between us..]

our cheer:
baby 1, 2, 3
kelly, yong shuang.
baby 1, 2, 3
manda, huimin.
baby 1, 2, 3
ratha, pearlyn.
baby 1, 2, 3
yoyo, watzup..

once again, wanna thank the choir for their big time..
thanks choir members for being so hyper and for their enthusiasm
choir rawks my world.
really had enjoyed myself..=)

just read the email sent by mr ang.
could felt my heart suddenly sank.
i knew i cant control my emotions.
i'm sad.
real sad about his leave.
but it had all become a fact.
nothing can change the fact.
i know he is gonna miss us
and 3e3,05' is gonna miss him too. cuz we love him..
he is really a great teacher..

real tired after the camp.
i guess i'm gonna blog more tomorrow.
[ARGH.. sms burst liao..='( sickening]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At10:46 PM

results' out.
taken report book.
improved.=)
actually, class and level position isnt important.
what really matters is L1R4 and L1R5..
but they are also not very important.
what's really really important is the effort put in..

cleaning of classroom was tedious.
rather tired scrabbing the windows.
phew, it's over.
now the class is spiky clean.=)

class photo.
cool. 3e3,05' rawks.
the class photo brought back all the memories of the things we had done throughout this year. the international friendship day.
the racial harmony drama.
the national day.
the teachers' day.
the hanging of dolls in class.
the painting of windows.
the MTV.
the lessons in class.
the mid-year class chalet.
the upcoming class bbq.
3e3 rawks.
we do things TOGETEHR..
united as one.
i love being part of 3e3..=)

going to camp.
choir camp is gonna be fun..=)
shant be blogging until sunday.=)

sijia is sick today. ying qi is sick too. both of you must take care wor..=)
chatted with jin guan today. *happy...*
claudia had went to thailand already. for 10 days.. miss her? hehe..

i guess i got to go and get things ready le.=)

[memories will ever fade away??]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At12:47 PM

rain.
rely being cancelled.
hmm, lady luck is not by our side.

temasek poly.
went there for a "tour".
3e3, with 33 people around.
went to the applied science course to have a better picture of the place.
we learnt to make our own recycled paper[with no wordings in it] using newspaper.
we also went to the food science pratical place.
we went there, mixing and rolling up food.=p
rather fun.=)
perhaps, the next time i visit temasek poly is when i register into it.[not sure..haha]

yiru was so sweet.
she wrote a letter for me.
unexpectly, i was blushing then.=x

bariah gave me presents today.
and you know what? it's my early birthday present.=)
she was afraid tat she wouldnt get to see me so pass me first.
[she remembers my birthday.. so sweet of her]
so early eh? anyway, i havnt open it up yet.
should i wait till my birthday??

tomorrow is the last day of school.
tomorrow is when we gonna clean up everything.
tomorrow is when we got back our report book.
tomorrow is the day when we packed up and get ready to start afresh next year.
tomorrow is on their way..

rather worried about amanda.
she was having headaches when we are in TP.
she was feeling giddy and get even stand properly on her own.
so worried bout her.
hope that she is feeling better.
amanda was so funny.
know what? she asked me to take up nursing course when i go poly/jc.
cuz i sure know how to care for others.
oh, haha.. if i'm to be a nurse, there is sure to be a lot of complain about me de.[haha....]

let tomorrow take care of itself?
indeed, action speaks louder than words.

enthusiasm.
i believe that life is short and we should cherish every moment.
being quite "on" these few months.
is something wrong with me? =D

getting excited about choir camp.
should blog a little before i go for camp tomorrow.=)
CHOIR ALL THE WAY..

[it's no longer important.
cuz it's not me that matters, it's you.]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At5:14 PM

25 pple in 3e3 turn up today.
meaning 16 pple didnt turn up.
suprise?
not sure.

had another course today.
(=
the guy traineer is rather funny.
gave us sweets[yummy..=p ]
taught us basic manners to follow when we are in public places.
learnt a few things today.

had a mini arguement during recess.
didnt know how i should phrase it.
anyway, it's about the 2e3,04' chalet we are gonna have in mid-nov.
both are my best frenz.
one stand on my right, another on my left.
ask me to choose.
oh, either way i'm dead.
i rather not choose.
can i stand on both sides?
this had made me feel moody ever since after exam.
cant think of a win-win solution.
what am i suppose to do?

choir shirt.
didnt turn out as nice but it's still alright la.
choir badge.
wonderful. perfect. cool. nice. it's just simply beautiful.=)
choir camp is coming up next.
excited for the camp. anyway, i will be bringing my hp along.=p

rely.
running for rely tmr.
hope the weather would turn out just fine.
just feel like running.
an impulsive action in me that wants me to run??

it's coming to an end.
the week is coming to an end.
though i wan the boring days to be over soon.
but the week coming to an end also means that he is leaving pretty soon.
if there is a choice for us to choose.
i believe all of us would rather have boring days than to see him leave.
*cries*
why must everything that has a start, has an end?

[i dun like to pple to beat around the bush.
cuz i'm slow.
i wouldnt get what they mean.
so, be striaght-forward towards me.]

*silently.*
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At6:11 PM

money management.
a course for the sec 3s.
a course to let us be more expose to the working society.
a course that let us be a step towards reality.
a rather useful course.
=)

3e3 is left with 32 people today.
i wonder how's life tomorrow.
10 people? or even lesser?

half-hearted.
wanted to run for the rely today.
just felt that i should get involve.
wat's more is that the inter-house game is coming to an end this year.
really hope to run the rely one last time.
however, the weather wasnt by our side.=(
it was postpone to thursday.

choir.
didnt know what's wrong with us.
we suddenly become so enthu when it comes to choir.
does this shows that we are more hyper after exams?

learnt how to fold heart shape using straws.
relatively easier that stars using straws.
nice nice.=)

mixed feelings.
didnt know how i should feel now.
it had become a fact.
we cant escape.
they have to leave some day.
but we know. in our hearts, they never once leave.

[memories.. those times we share together]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At9:47 PM

another week have passed.
last week, same day, monday, i was out.
this week, same day, monday, i was out too.
but this time, with different people.
the other time, with yan ling and huijia.
this time round, with yan ling, ying qi and li hin.

went bugis today.
had a great time with the three of them.
took neoprints.
and went shopping round and round and round.[haha..]
bought presents.=)

was craving for ice-cream.
had four scoops of those with yingqi and lihin.
wow, cookie and cream flavour.[yum yum, my favourite]
hazel flavour.[i'm drooling.. ooops..]
and vanilla flavour.[finger licking good..lol]
and strawberry flavour. [taste good.]

found out that i'm already very blessed to be able to live in this world with no illness.
found out that i'm already very lucky to have so many people around me caring for me.
found out that i'm already very fortunate to have a wonderful family.
i'm contented with my life.=)

november coming.
i miss my cousin who is in USA now.
wow, how good if i'm there too.
by then, i would be able to see snow.
cool, isnt it?

this world is so wonderful.

[we should live each day as if it's the last.
so that we would live with regrets.]

*the sunrise. the sunset. the beach. the sky. the stars. the rainbows. the love in the world*
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At9:37 PM

a clean environment.
a clean start.
a clean place.
clearing all the rubbish.
clearing all unused stuffs.
clearing all the unless things.
"new things will be on our way as the old ones are cleared away"
this is what the chinese would usually say.=)

ouch.='(
blood.
my gosh, i accidentally cut myself.
pain pain.='(
poor finger, now got a scar.[sob]
in my state, cant fold stars using straw le.
cuz my left index finger have no more strength left.
i need time to heal the wound first.='(

stay at home.
going outside.
it's the same effect.
boring.
at home, nothing better to do.(sleep, eat, use com, watch tv, sms, use phone....)
go out, also nothing better to do.[window-shopping, neoprint, walk here and there..]
cant imagine the days during holidays. more bored?
[=x hush, so sian....]

is our batch(those who are born in year 1990) the most unlucky batch?
the last batch to sit for science pratical exams in "o" levels.
the last batch to choose the school first before getting PSLE results.
the last batch to see good teachers leave, one by one. [cries]
the first batch to sit for new format of chinese "o" levels.
the first batch to experience changing of teachers.
so is our batch(those who are born in year 1990) the most unlucky batch?

was chatting with rebecca and hui zhuang yesterday.
chatted about choir stuffs.
we are gonna make choir camp a fun one.
a memorable one.
we are gonna make choir members feel united as one.
we are NOT gonna make choir fall.
=) we stand by choir.

happy birthday to my dearest junior and my dearest frenz.
jie ni and ngin ying.=)
happy birthday.

wanna thank genie for the cute display pic.
thanks gal. appreciate it lots. love the display pic made by you.=)

and i wish upon the stars.
[sometimes, i wonder.
which is the truth.
which one should i believe?]
lots of questions in my head.
no answers to it.
no one could answer those questions.

i still strongly believe that actions speaks louder than words.=)
*i seems so stupid, waiting and waiting when i didnt even know whether there is outcome not.*
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At1:28 PM

tittle of composition: MISTAKEN IDENTITY

Tears rolled down my cheeks when the judge announced that i was guilty. From today onwards, i could no longer have freedom. i regretted for making a mistake. What's done cannot be undone.


I remembered vividly what happened. Susan was the girl I loved a few years back. Her silky soft hair had already attracted me. I was deeply in love with her as days passes by.

"John! I'm sorry but I really cannot accept your love. I'm truefully sorry. However, we are still the best of friends." Susan's words pierce through my heart. I knew the reason why Susan rejected me. I knew it from the start.

Jack was the guy I hated the most. It was him who snatch away Susan from me. It was him that Susan loved but not me. He was the one who destroyed my dreams. I hated him to the core.

It was drizzling that night. However, it did not dampen my mood. Not today. I waited outside Jack's semi-detached house. I looked around to check the surroundings.

The footsteps of someone broke the silence. I checked the time which stated 12:00 am. Taking the shiny knife with me, I walked closer and closer towars the person. I was sure he was Jack. I wanted to do it in the twinkling of an eye.

I attacked him from behind. I covered his mouth with a cloth so that he will not wake his neighbours. Then, i dragged him to a corner. It was dim. My shadows was the only eye-witness when I stabbed Jack with my knife repeatedy in his chest. The rain had become heavier. It had washed away all the blood-stain. Finally, Susan was mine, I thought.

I could hear the creaking of the door. The door of the semi-detached house. I looked up and saw a person walking into Jack's house. I was confused.

I was shocked. The one I killed was not Jack, it was Jack's brother. I started to feel the pain in my heart. I didn't want this to happen. I didnt mean to have killed a wrong person. Excruciating regrets brushed in my heart.

The next moment, I was behind bars. I could hear Susan repeatly telling me that she doesn't belong to me. The voice become vague and soft. It was fading.

There was a few times when Jack came to visit me in jail. I didnt have the courage to face him, so he went out without seeing me. I took a deep breath and thought of how stupid I was to have killed the wrong person.

love this composition lots.
do i sound like i killed people before?
so experience, haha.
i wrote this composition during exams.
i decided to write this composition in my blog is
firstly, because i came across this when i browse through my exam scripts.
secondly, because i love this composition lots.
thridly, because i got nothing better to do..

read this in a book.
it states when we chase people, asking them for love, they often run away.
why? cause we are chasing them.
in a nutshell, it means
"when we try to trap people in relationships, they can't wait to escape!
when we LET GO, they often come back."
make sense, isnt it?
haha, interesting.

sister is sick.
I am sick.
oh, people out there, do take care of your health.=)

they made a difference in my life.
i know that leaving is hard.
i'm gonna miss them lots.
parting and letting go the one you love is never easy.
sometimes, memories is just not enough.
if only time can stop at this moment.

it's getting nearer and nearer.
school is gonna close soon.
perhaps, everything tat has a start will have an end.
we cant run away from reality.
it's a fact they are leaving.
*cries*

alarm. birthday alarm.
october, november, december.
lots of birthday babies born within these three months.
october: julian(04/10), aik kun(07/10), claudia(08/10), valerie(10/10), sze ying(11/10), shi hui(20/10), jie ni(23/10), shermaine(29/10), cousin cindy(30/10)..
november: zi qi(07/11), pei shan(08/11), jasmine(09/11), marcus(21/11), yi qin(24/11)
december: zuan zhe(02/12), cousin kieron(04/12), mary(06/12), dianna(14/12), sijia(15/12), cheryl(20/12), junior jasmine(25/12), ning en(28/12), hong jun(31/12)..
hmm, this already show tat i'm gonna have a hole in my pocket.=p

wanted to run the relay next tuesday.
hesitate for a while.
didnt sumimit my name in the end.
i fear that i cant bring glory to my house(dragon)
cuz i'm not feeling well these few days.

life is mundane.
life is boring.
gonna find things to do.
something special.
but what's that thing?
i dunno too.

[maybe, all of us need a break.
a break from studies and results, problems and more problems.
we need a rest]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:19 AM

vice chairman.
choir vice chairman(s).
hui min and li hin.
this was pronouned during choir practise today.
didnt even know if i'm up to standard not.[haha]
will be holding on to this position till next year june.

choir camp is coming up.
next friday, saturday and sunday.
gonna be busy, busy, busy.

check SA2 marks today.
but this time round, combine with CA2 too.
took note of the result and that's it.
shant mention these results till i got my report book.
[again and again, i repeat myself, results arnt important as long as we tried our best.=) ]

learnt new things.
learn how to fold stars using straws.
learn how to fold crane.
learn how to fold roses.
=) new things learnt each day.

was feeling cold the whole day.
on and off.
wore jacket for bout half of the day.
cant help it.

7th november.
3e3 bbq.
looking forward to it.
just love 3e3 class spirit.

had a great chat with stella.=)
a great frenz who always care about me.=)
simply love her accompany lots..

miss tchaikovky lots.
miss amundsen lots.
miss 2e3,04' lots.
miss 1e2,03' lots.
miss 6.3,02' lots.
simply miss the good old times.
_so near yet so far_

it is getting more and more boring here.
nothing much to do at home.
go out? but where to? movies, beach, neoprints, window-shopping.
it seems like life is mundane.
we keep re-doing the same thing over and over again.

worried bout others' results.
hope everyone get promoted.

and i wish upon the star.
for everyone to be happy.=)
[tmr will be a better day]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At8:09 PM

lots of things left undone.
went to sch for morning assembly only.
thanks yan ling and sijia for "presuading" me to go home for so long.=p
lala: thanks for concern.=) i will take care de, or u take care of me lor.=p
nana: thanks for the sms. it means a lot to me.. anyway, i will take care de..=)
julian: thanks for asking how am i feeling. *glad* dont worry too much.=)
zhi ning: thanks for concern. you must get well soon too.
juvone: xie xie ni. really appreciate your concern..
li hin and yan ling: two of my besta frenz.. thanks for the visit today. real appreciate the chat with you two just now.. will catch up with you all real soon.[huggies]

i insist to go to sch in the morning despite parents' disproval.
why? because i wanna give birthday present to shi hui mei.
"happy birthday shi hui..[huggies]"
wanna give valerie her belated birthday present too.
wrote letters to those who cried yesterday. but i only manage to give one cuz i went home.=x
wanted to get back my chinese paper too.
(thanks yan ling for helping me take results..=) luv ya lots..)
wanted to go to the choir course too..

however, the feelings are so strong. SO STRONG.
i went to the toilet to warm myself up by the "hand-dryer"..
however, it stil dont seems to work.
i still feel cold.
one jacket is not enough for me.
i still went back, i cant take it.
oh, this is the third time this year that i got medical certificate.
i'm so WEAK.
so useless, no strength at all.
*sleeping throughout*

[my presence is no longer important.
so who would care about my absence?]

sometimes, i just wonder.
am i in the correct world?
i cant even console others when they are sad.
i cant bring them laughter and make them smile.
i cant bring them happiness.
oh, wat kind of frenz am i?

am i native to think tat things could be the same as before?
am i foolish enough to think tat one day, everything will be back as usual?
oh it is just the silly side of me.
the one-sided me.
the one who is willing to wait, no matter how long.
but is the other party willing to give me another chance?

i just think too much.
too much to worry about others tat i even forget to worry bout myself.

[actions speak louder than words.]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At10:10 AM

from the start, i stress tat results are not important.
really, results is part of life.
as long as we tried our best, results dont really matter.

we got back all subjects except for chinese.
6 results at one go.
one after another.
english, emaths, amaths, physics, chemistry, elective geography and social studies.
IT'S OVER.

i did as promised.
i didnt shed a tear for results.
my heart ache a lot when my love ones cry.
i didnt know how to console them.
seriously, i felt hurt.
i shall not name those who cried.
but these words are meant for them:
"dont worry too much. our target is 'o' levels, isnt it? anyway, let's chiong harder the next time. do take care lots my frenz."

zhining: heard that you are discharge from hospital, so glad to hear that. anyway, hope ya get well soon. rest well and we shall fulfil our wish as planned.=)

juvone: hey. exams over. dont think too much yea? shall call you one day to catch up with ya..=)

[didnt spoke a single word. just a simple smile, but it means so much to me]

hard feelings.
results doesnt matter to me cuz i knew my limit.
i already tried my best.
didnt feel sad nor happy bout my results.
worried for my frenz. shant mention names. really praying hard.
as for another frenz of mine, at first i'm worried but after tat, quite alright la..=)

went chalet just now.
my cousin's birthday party.
had fun there.
and eat cake again. =p
craving for cakes. wahahahaha.=p

just wanna have a good rest first.
tomorrow will handle itself.
it's no use pounding over tmr, cuz tmr had yet to come.

i love the sunset.
really wanna go to the beach.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At10:20 PM

boring. this is the word most of us would use to describe today.
a boring day which most of us almost fall asleep.
a boring day which we are just slacking around.
there's nothing better for us to do.

went to jog around the central park with yan ling today, in the morning around 6am.
the breeze make us cool as it touches our face and down our spine.[i'm being crappy here=p]
anyway, we saw the moon. it seems so near to us, but it's yet so far.
the moon was lowered when the sky become brighter.
a great experience with great people.=p

[i felt a pinch in my heart.
i felt hurt when you got hurt too.
i felt as though i'm the one being punish when you are being punish.]

a lot of problems left in a mess before the exams.
perhaps, it's time to clear up.
the time to settle all these unhappy things.
maybe, while we settle these stuff, it may lead to more unhappiness, but we still cant run away from reality. SETTLE IT REAL SOON.

folding stars the whole morning.
folding stars.
folding cranes.
folding triangles.
3e3 is so united. we fold things TOGETHER.=)
that's the way. one for all, all for one.
3e3,05' rawks.=)

gave out those letters tat i wrote.
unexpectedly, i recieve a letter from elizabeth today.[huggies]
i'm so touched man.=) great pals think alike.

was walking in the rain. walked at a real slow pace home. the rain seems to have washed away my tears. i felt so free in the rain. there are flashbacks in my mind. those times in the rain.

[i knew my feelings. it couldnt be so real if it's fake. i cant denied anymore.]

tomorrow will be the day.
the day that we got back our results.
the day we have been waiting for.
the day we know the truth, the fact, the reality.
tomorrow is the day..

[just say no more.]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At5:48 PM

it seems like it's a saturday or sunday to me.
went out with yan ling and sister.=)
actually pei shan also included de, but she last minute cannot.
[never mind, shall go out with her another day.]
we went to watch "the corpse bride".
a nice show.=) [so touching. esp towards the last part..]
anyway, we took neoprints.=)
after that, we went home and meet up afterwards.
noe why? to play badminton.
oh, this is the first time i ever tried playing sports after watching movie.=p
anyway, i had fun today.
yan ling: thanks for your accompany today.=) really enjoyed this day with you.=)
mei: thanks for all the lame jokes today.bleah=p. anyway, had fun wif you.=)

worried.
zhining is having operation today.
wonder how is she now.
worried.

didnt know whether the ending of the exams is a good thing or a bad thing afterall.
it's just so boring after exams, but at least we wouldnt feel stress.
the end of exams symoblise the start of problems? of our nightmares?
anyway, it's over. whether it's good or bad, it's still over.

gonna fold stars.
in love with them.
just love folding stars.
[wishing upon a star]

shall blog more tomorrow..
everyday is a new start.=)

[i'm holding on to memories.]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At7:11 PM

watch the news.
some part of singapore was so called "flood" by the heavy rain.
if i'm not wrong by 1 inch.
oh gosh, is this a bad sign?

went to grandma house today.
played with cousin kieron for a while.
auntie is sick. kieron is sick too.
weather not very good, no wonder people fall sick these few days.
felt so good to eat home-cook food.
yummy yummy.=)

wasnt feeling well today.
sore throat and tummy ache.
took an afternoon nap, thinking tat it will be alright after tat.
but i'm wrong.
it still hurts.
i really didnt know what's wrong.
*sigh*

people out there: do take care of your health.=)

read juvone's blog.
i wonder why some people just keep going around making nasty comments at other's blog.
i guess they got nothing better to do.
it's just a waste of time, or are they jealous?
that's why go around making nasty comments.
ARGH, forget it.
juvone: those people are just too free, you see. or perhaps, they are jealous tat you have lots of frenz, tat's why make nasty comments. dont care bout them la. just let them be, dun "play" with them, they childish is their problem.=p

just wanna thank dianna for yesterday's chat.
a great heart-to-heart chat.
i guess we are gonna have more of these.
a great frenz indeed.

julian. thanks for your concern.
i will take care of myself de, dun worry.=)
you too must take care wor.

still worried bout zhining.
called her just now to ask bout her situation.
glad tat she's alright.
gal, must take care.
fear not, i'll be there for you de.. others will be there too.=)

i guess i shall stop here.
tomorrow will be a better day.=)

[the happiest people dont bother about whether life is far.
they just make the most of what they have.
and is life "fair"? probably not. but it doesnt matter why!!]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At10:04 PM

am i thinking too much?
not bout results but bout frenz.
i'm still worried bout zhi ning.
though stella is alright le, but still some kind of worried for her.
didnt know how's life in genting. hope everything is alright.
some kind of miss my primary school frenz, juvone..=)
wonder how is she now..

aiyo, i worried for so many pple..=p
i guess i needa worry for myself for worrying too much..=x

wrote letters today.
just wanna keep the bonding between me and my frenz.
cuz exams drift us apart ma..=x
i really cherish frenzhip a lot..

oh yea, yesterday forget to blog tat i recieve a letter from dianna.
so touched by her actions man.
the letter means a lot to me.
nana, thanks wor..[hugies]

wanna thanks aloysius for yesterday's action.
just prove tat you care for our friendship.
really appreciate it lots.
thanks boi. =)

yesterday, went to watch "skeleton key".
quite scary but a nice show.
ending is not as expected.=p
had fun yesterday.

exam's over.
shall be going out more often.
yea, to the beach. to the beach.=)
to shopping with my dearest frenz. yea, happy.=p

went to the temple today.=)
prayed and went off to shop for cousin's birthday present.
had a great time with mummy and mei.
love them lots, they never fail to make me smile.=p

i guess tat's enough for today le.
shall blog more tomorrow.=p

[memories is enough?]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:31 AM

mixed feelings.
exam is over, by right, i should feel happy.
cause another work load down.
but now, i'm worried.
not for results.[cuz results to me is not as important]
i'm worried for zhi ning.
hais, how is she feeling now?
is she alright?
i'm really worried for my dearest frenz.
hope she pull through this.=x
[worried yet happy, what the hell i'm thinking?]

seriously, all i want to do now is play.
nothing else but play.
wanna release all my stress..=)

results is no longer as important to me.
cause the exams are over and we can do nothing to it le.
there are more important stuff for us to take note.=)
if i didnt score well, i knew i did my best.
i wouldnt be upset.=) cause i tried.

plans for after exam..
-go bedok reservoir.[with dianna, as promised.=) ]
-go watch sunset with the ones i love.
[zhi ning,must take care & get well soon so we can go watch sunset together like we planned. ]
-go watch movie
-go to the beach to bury unhappy things in the sand[with shi hui mei.. as requested.=p ]
-go shopping[with my dearest yan ling.=p haha ]
-go keep all my books so that they get out of my sight.=p
-go solve my problems.sigh.
-go gathering with my friends
[such as: ALWAYS BRING ME HAPPINESS, ning en, zhining, sze ying, sijia, shihui mei, yingqi mei, marcus, bariah, juvone..]

there are just lots of things for me to do after the exams..=)
hmmm, great feelings when exam is over.=)
just feel so good and relaxed.

shall blog more tmr..
a good rest is wat i need know.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At8:24 AM

11 out of 12 exam paper done.
left with only one. amaths paper 2.
another day before hell is over.=p

emaths paper 2 today was rather alright.
at least, emaths is over. yeah!

just wat's wrong?
i keep running to toilet.
ARGH. hate this man.

[i just want to take a glance at you.
that's all.
when i look at you, i feel my heart beating so strongly]

after exams:
-2 days need not go to sch, due to marking day and promotion day
-2 days used to go through papers
-5 days of post exam activities(mr yap told us)
-1 day which is last day of sch, will get report book...=p ]
2 rather fast weeks coming our way after exam. by then, holiday will start.. yipee..=)

[i'm letting go of you...]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At10:10 AM

jiayou. another 2 more days before exam end.
hang on there.. 2 more days to go.

today's paper(chinese and chemistry) was... ARGH.. difficult.
but at least i know that i have tried my best.
perhaps, results is not as important as compared to the process.
i have tried my best.

i didnt know the reason.
but i just had stomach ache these few days.
it hurts a lot. ='(
i hate going to the toilet for so many times. i'm tired.=p
i shall just bear it for another 2 days.

encouragement for myself does help me boost my confidence.=)
i just set a reminder in my handphone to ask me to jiayou every morning.
maybe, it's childish and lame to do this, but it helps me.=p

i was tricked by yan ling yesterday.=p
so i can be so easily tricked.
hmmm, must be careful the next time.

ouch. there goes my stomach pain again.

after exam, i should think about the problems again.
i shall find a solution to it, rather then leave it dangling there.
by then..

[feelings cant be earse off so easily]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At12:30 PM

be it exam period or not, i still blog.
i guess i just dislike keeping everything to myself.

read an email by my cousin.=)
IT'S MADNESS
-to hate all roses because you got scratched with one thorn.
-to give up your dreams because one didnt come true.
-to give up on your efforts because one of them failed.
-to condemn all your friends because one betrayed you.
-not to believe in love because someone was unfaithful or didnt love you back.
-to throw away all your chances to be happy because you did not succeed on first attempt.
I HOPE THAT AS YOU GO ON YOUR WAY, DONT GIVE IN TO MADNESS.
i really miss her lots. now she is in USA. =) she will be back soon.

today's elective geography paper was relatively difficult.
but at least i got attempt to the question, didnt leave it blank.=p
emaths paper was quite alright. just a little problem with the speed-time graph and velocity-time graph.=p
exam is gonna be over soon. JIAYOU. another 3 more days.[having a countdown=p]

read this somewhere:
"is it better to love or to be loved?"
hmmm, a rather difficult question eh? haha..

[i just wanna hold on to you
never let go of your hands
but you seems drifting away
more and more unreachable]
it's too late for anything.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At12:29 PM

tuesday, wednesday, thursday and friday.
4 more days before exams come to an end.
HANG ON there. it will be OVER soon.=)

today's physics exam was rather alright. i guess i can pass.
but dun pin too much hope..=x
amaths exam, some easy some difficult.=p
anyway, i was just glad tat another two paper is down, dun have to worry le.=)

i'm alright. really.
i wouldnt broke down again during exams. WOULDNT.

i wanna pick up each and every pieces of my broken heart and "glue" them together again.
i choose to believe.
perhaps, i need time to find those broken pieces.

[you never know the pain of falling when others warn/tell you. you will only know the pain when you fall down yourself.]

my mind was filled with notes. ONLY notes.
i have place the unhappy memories into a box.
after exam, i will collect it back.
though i dont wish to have it back, but i guess it's only right to face up to reality.
i cant run away. and i DONT wanna run away.

walked down the empty and quiet staircase. the staircase full of memories.
this time, i walked alone.
i never expect you to let go of my hand and let me fall to the ground.

[it's no point worry-ing for you when you choose this path yourself]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At1:40 PM

i am fully prepared.
i will give my best shot.
i will concentrate.
i will not let myself down.
cuz i know that i will try my best.

[i dun wanna hear anymore.
just wan exams to be over soon..]

perhaps, all i need is time.
let time heal the wound.
i dun wanna shed another tear but everything is beyond my control.
i know it's time to let go.
[why did you wake me up from my dreams? now i'm left with broken images..]
perhaps, i broke down too often. but is this my fault?

*exams is the top priority now..*
we are so near, yet so far.... unreachable.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At3:48 PM

i'm alright.
after all the crying, i'm alright.
i will be strong.

[thanks to:
-yan ling
-wan ying

-claudia

-ying qi
-mary
-cheryl
-valerie
-pei shan
-dianna
-stella
-genie
-jia
-mummy and daddy]

this time, physics is gonna be tested on monday.
jiayou, jiayou, jiayou....
gonna buck up for physics..
really dun wanna fail again.=p

"love is when you let the one you love have happiness"-from edmund chen in 'beyond the axis 2'

perhaps, everything that have a start will have an end.
perhaps, nothing is forever.
[though i still strongly believe only frenzship and family ties can last forever..=p]

i just wanna concentrate on my studies now.
no other things.
till after exam......

[let time heal the wound.]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At1:05 PM

Friday, October 07, 2005

concrete

today's social studies paper was alright.
i have nothing to say/complain if i didnt score well.
cuz i have done my best.
my best shot.

i am so weak.
but i MUST be strong.
what if the next moment, i fall down again?
i'm just too tired to move on.
i loathe the feeling when i fall and never get up again.

perhaps, people cherish things/people more when they lose them.
i realise that i took a lot of things for granted.
people out there: i just wanna tell you that you have made a difference in my life. i dont wanna regret later for not telling you guys these.

what's more can i say.....?
i choose this path.
never will i regret.

i dislike people who break promises...

my world is of black and white.
[concrete.......]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At3:39 PM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

perhaps

tears just rolled down my cheeks.
perhaps, i just need to blog.
to release the stress in me.
i hate to see myself cry.
i'm just too emotional.
problems.

(stella, yan ling, dianna, shye fern, li hin, pei shan, mary: thanks for letting me know that you all are there for me. i'm really touched.=') a frenz in need is a frenz indeed)

[if you love something, let it go...
if it comes back to you, it's yours.
if not, it never was.]

yesterday was julian's birthday. went to jin guan house to celebrate it.
had fun with them.=)
english paper on monday wasnt that bad.*hope to at least pass...=p*
preparing for the other battle when more obstacles came in.
nvm, i will JIAYOU de..
i will not let those obstacles stop me from moving on de.
i shall be strong.

[i long for next month to come.]
30 days will soon arrive.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At5:09 PM

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