i recalled all the sad moments when we graduate from primary school. not a million words can replace the way i felt at that point of time. didnt bear to leave some of my close frenz. after a few years, i realise i still long for the friendship i used to had and i really miss my primary school days...
today, we had some kind of gathering. felt so great to be with them again. as if i had stuck lottery. i guess this feeling would be better.=)

played a few games at macdonals' since mr lee(om of evps) had asked us to take our leave. the games simply rules, had fun with them. we even had forfeit. my gosh, i had a few forfeit. those include asking a guy(whom i dunno) for his number, sit down in the middle of the field for 10 second and running at the perimeter of the field. i was so embarrass at that time, i guess my whole face went red.*oooops*
anyway, the most embarrassing forfeit i have done was to ask an elder if the newspaper was nice to read a not. i burst into laughter even before i asked. anyway, i asked and the elder replied: "are you mad?"my my, at that point, i really have no more "face" to lose. it was damn embarrassing..
i really enjoyed myself today..
[pei shan, cheryl, yvon, juvone, eileen, jia jia, xuan hui, wei ting, rebecca, pei zhi, aloysius, jackson, yi qin, winstar, zheng ming, xiong sheng, boon soom, ye hui]
they really made my day..=)
i promise that i will organise a 6.3 gathering with mrs chin and mrs tan.. by then...

MTV project... Tchaikovsky rawks my world man.. we have completed editing our MTV prject..*claps claps* product was great, but i personally feel that the previous one was alright too.. anyway, we did our best in both present and previous MTV..
(three cheers to three cheers to three cheers to Tchaikovsky..
hip hip hooray..
hip hip HOORAY...
HIP HIP HOORAY..)
in my opinion, Tchaikovsky is one of the group that i have been through thick and thin with.. we had been crazy together, strict at times, fun and laughter.. i really like this bonding..

some kind of miss AMUNDSEN when we were chatting about OBS today with our primary school friends.. =)
AMUNDSEN ready, AMUNDSEN pull...
miss the times we had in OBS in term 3 week 3..

2e3,04'.. miss each and every one of them.. i still keep in contact with some individual people but not as a whole.. we rules as a whole 2e3.. we were noisy at times and quiet at times, really like the way we are..

[miss tang. mrs chin. mrs tan. mr chan. mrs ong. mr khiat. madam li. mrs shanker. miss ho. madam fara. miss lee. miss tan. mrs mohan. madam fauziah. mr sin. madam irmawati. mr ong. mr ang. miss neo. mrs teo. mrs quek. mrs lu. miss lin. madam chin. miss chew. mr koh. mr sim. mr tan. miss yan. ]
-thanks to all teachers that had taught me. hope i didnt miss out anyone of them..

=) a fruitful day..
*sometimes i wonder why cant we be as close as before?*
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She Smiled At9:00 PM

Tchaikovsky rocks my world.
"Tchaikovsky is one of the best groups. I had ever been in. I had learnt a lot from Zul, Hwee Ing, Shye Fern and Stella. They are really great group members to work with, though we had some internal dispute, but that neither affects our working speed nor our group relationship."
-wrote this first paragraph in my personal reflection for the MTV project.
felt happy about the MTV "product" though it's not complete yet..=)

going back to primary school tomorrow. as junyuan sec will be dismiss at 12pm and east view pri dismiss at 1pm, i will most probably stay at junyuan sec to complete my MTV editing first before i even go back to pri school. getting so excited now.
called mrs tan just now, she couldnt regonise my voice. hope to see her tomorrow. miss mrs chin too..

spoke to juvone today, had a great time chatting with her. how rare we ever chat.
was rather touched when i read yan ling's entry in evon's autography book.. cheers!!

tired.
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She Smiled At6:51 PM

tired of all these. i didnt wanted to scold you, anyway, that WASNT scolding okay, i'm just asking you to pack your stuff as they are laying all around and i just asked you to hand your towel. i had told you a few times, but you ignored. i didnt know, and i dont wish to know, if you purposely didnt wanna keep the towel or you didnt hear me. i dont wish to know.
the next moment, i knew i'm tired of repeating myself again and again but you act as if you didnt hear me, it's like talking to a wall. i dont wish to quarrel. i really hated all these.

my eyes are watery. i knew i cried silently. i wipe my eyes and get back into doing my emaths homework. my paper had got a few wet drops on them, i dont wanna care anymore. i'm just too tired to do so.

got back amaths retest paper. argh, careless AGAIN.. and this differ me from a B3 and an A2.. gosh, just half a mark and i will get the mark i desire for. anyway, quite glad with these already.

i just wanna remain silent, very silent. i dont wanna care so much anymore, what's the use. i just wanna show some concern for you but what did i get in return. i just hope you appreciate you, but instead you turn your back on me and started to scold me. was it my fault? alright, everything IS my fault......

didnt had to mood for anything at this moment of time, i wish that things could get better..
*i longed for the past.........*
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She Smiled At8:48 PM

week 10.. the start of week 10.. last week of term 3..

melissa, jia yi, elizabeth, xiu hui, joyce, chiu wen, xin ling, aloysius, wee kiat, derrick, freeman, julian, shawn, yi qin, winstar..15 of them make my day..=) went to joyce house today to watch movie and played some games..
melissa: zhu zhu.. haha, had a great time with you today, like how we used to be in sec 2..
jia yi: ma yi, had a wonderful time joking around with you.. glad we kept in contact.
eliazabeth: thanks for accompany-ing me today, laughing non-stop. great pals, like in the past.
xiu hui: not as close to you, but you brought to me laughter. so cheerful.
xin ling: thanks for ur accompany. you are just so special. frenz are forever.
aloysius: "jio" me out. such a nice guy you are. thanks anyway. i did turn up, happy? oh yes, thanks for asking shawn to "tickle" you when you said i make a joke.. lol..
wee kiat: thanks for "jio-ing" me out too.. nice time with you guys.. glad i turn up?
derrick: didnt chat much with you. one reason why i move behind is that you block my view.lol.
freeman: fancy asking me to go sit down instead of standing up to wait for the others. when i refuse, you stand up to keep me accompany. thanks guy.
julian: thanks for sending me home. really appriciate you lots.. thanks for always making me happy.. and trying all methods to bring laughter to me
shawn: didnt know you well. but glad "tickle" aloy to make him laugh to "pei" me..lol/
yi qin: thanks for not making me feel left out. i understand you are just kidding when you ask me to kept quiet. thanks for being a great frenz.
winstar: havnt been talking to you for quite some time. hope to see you soon when we return to east view primary.

the 15 pple really make me feel that i exist. thanks to all of them..*claps claps*

learnt chapter 6, social studies today. didnt really go into details.

a great day today.. but rather tired these few days..

*euu guys make my life meaningful*
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She Smiled At8:50 PM

new beginning. new start. new positive thinking. new mind set.
everything will start from today.

mtv was a great start to welcome the new beginning. we filmed the mtv at different angles, different position. quite a sucess i can say. shye fern wasnt with us today as she's going overseas in the afternoon. thanks hwee ing for being the other actress. now, the whole storyboard is change.

yan ling: thanks for the "scolding" yesterday. your words finally wake me up and i realise that my life is precious and that i have a great frenz like euu.. thanks for leaving your footprints here.
stella: thanks for being there to comfort me when euu yourself wasnt that well too.. glad to have euu as my frenz =). yesyes, we will stick together through thick and thin. anyway, today was quite successful. but at the same time, dun pin too much hopes..
sijia: thanks for leaving a comment here. yes, i will jia you de.. thanks for being there for me when i need someone.. =)
julian: i'm alright le.. thanks for being there, also readily to lend me your shoulders and lend me your listening ear. i really appreciate it lots. perhaps we pin too much hope on the previous mtv le, a lesson learnt, have confidence but dun have too high expectation. it's not our fault. but it's not mr ong's fault either le. he was either too fussy, or have too high expectation for our group, resulting in negative comments. i also admit that we were sensative in the sense, thinking he wasnted us to redo. i wasnt even sure if he mean this or was it purely comments.. anyway, we refilm almost everything. just treat it as another experience.
wee kiat, aloysius: thanks for asking me out, not making me feel alone. i TRY to out out tmr, kkz? but not a promise. anyway, thanks..

went to the temple, after mtv filming, with my mother, in bugis. had a great chat with her. went shopping. the bonding of me and my mother is very strong, we chat almost everything under the sun. =)
bought dinner home. we took a bus and the journey back home taught me something meaningful. on the first bus-stop(i think), a guy aboard the bus. he wasnt in the right state of mind, i guess he is not as normal. he kept swinging his hand anywhere in the bus. everyine avoided him. at that time, i thought how will i feel if i'm him? from here, i would like to thank yan ling for waking me up yesterday. life is still meaningful with frenz and family around=)
my mother told me a story. a real life story. she said that there was once a guy who studied too hard(i guess) and went crazy after that. my mother then conclude that perhaps the guy i saw in the bus suffered from the same situation. she added that i should always think positive as i have tried my best cuz it's not worth to be crazy after studing so hard.

teacher's day is coming. yea, gonna meet my primary school frenz once again next wed, 31/08.
east view primary school will be dismiss at about 1 p.m.. hope jun yuan secondary wouldnt hold us for too long. really miss my primary school life. miss my primary school frenz. miss my primary school teachers.. miss everything in east view primary.

*life is beautiful.*
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She Smiled At9:11 PM

disappointed. this is the only word to describe my feelings when mr ong commented on our mtv. it was our fault, we didnt really go deep enough into content. will be RE-doing the filming again tomorrow. *hope tomorrow will be a better day..*

oral examination. i have lose this battle. i cant afford to lose in the war. i will have to buck up le. from now onwards, every morning, i will be practising reading a paragraph of words in front of the mirror myself, or perhaps get my parents to be the judge. i must overcome the fear. this is only a mistake.
i was as disappointed to hear madam saleha's comment. i could hear my heart breaks, the hurt was just too deep. but it's all over, wat else can i do? sigh, will jia you.

wrote letter to elizabeth, yiru, dianna and xuan hui today. they were once my close frenz in sec 1.. somehow, we are related.. the bonding still remain. frenz 4eva.
wrote letter to pei shan, mary, yan ling, shye fern and li hin yesterday. reason being was to tell them they were never once forgotten and that to appreciate what they have done for me.
wrote to zhi ning, xin ling, jia yi, julian, cheryl and claudia too.. wanted to let them know they arnt left out. they are great. really glad to have them by my side.

didnt blog yesterday. didnt even switch my computer on as i dont wanna get distracted. i was doing hmwk and revising amaths. my effort really paid off. amaths test was relatively easier than the previous amaths paper. however, read one of the questions wrongly. already, wat done cant be undone. so just wait for my results.

after the incident today, found out that there are still lots of people that care for me..
special thanks:
-yan ling(for lending me your shoulder)
-li hin(for listening to me)
-shye fern(for being there to cheer me up)
-pei shan(for comforting me)
-mary(for making me smile)
-dianna(for sms-ing me to ask if i'm alright)
-yiru(for asking me if i'm okay)
-elizabeth(for keeping me accomapany today)
-ning en(for sms-ing me and asking me to smile)
-julian(for listening to me)
-wee kiat(for cheer-ing for me during oral)
-vincent(for cheer-ing for me during oral)
-stella(being there to cheer me up though euu were not well too)
-zul(for being a great leader)
-hong jun(for being there to chat with me)
-hui jia(for listening to me nag and cry)
-parents(for being there to listen to my problems)
-daddy khiat(for listening to my problems)

**i thought i couldnt see the sunlight anymore when i fall deeper and deeper into the endless well. i thought i would wan to give up. it was euu guys that pull me through this. i really appreciate these actions by euu all. though it may be just a simple sms, or just simply asking if i'm alright. it already means a lot. thanks for giving me the faith and will to work even harder to see sunlight again. i promise myself that no matter how hard the road ahead will be, i will always try to think positive.

~great frenz by my side~
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She Smiled At7:30 PM

sell flowers during recess.. didnt have a very good response. speachless.

mtv project.*claps claps* almost almost done. all thanks to zul, shye fern, hwee ing, stella, huiminz, miss saroja... ~hope things will turn out fine~

at nitez, online..had a great time chatting with aloysius and wee kiat..
both of euu take care lots, yea..

such a short entry for today..
limited time, limited space...

*too little time,too much work*
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She Smiled At10:32 PM

breathless.... time is just running and running.. and running.. and running at a very fast speed..
soon, before we knew, it would be end of year examination...
it arrives before anyone could be fast enough to react...

amaths. both happy and disappointed. =) quite pleased with my marks.. but at the same time, i can hear my heart ache cuz of STUPID careless mistakes.. ok, enough of amaths.. later, stil have to carry on wif tons of amaths hmwk.. argh.

choir.. didnt know how to face my fellow choir mates.. argh, was trying to ask the alto to sing louder, but the volume didnt increase at all. so i said in quite a serious tone: "if euu guys dun sing loud enough, den euu all sing one by one"i wonder if this sentence scare them a not, cuz after this their volume really increas..=)
learnt new song today, not all parts but a few verse...

*missing mr khiat these few days...*
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She Smiled At9:30 PM

I HATE THIS..
not a good start today...
dun wish to talk about it..
i DUN wan the same thing to happen again..

amaths paper.. only 15 pple from the class, out of 41 pass their amaths test..
*gosh, there is a large percentage that i will fail.. =(*

get back geography test paper today.. took both test paper back.. overall was quite ok...
*=) happy that combine humanilities i score an A....*

practice oral today during english lessons.. oh, oral take up 30% of GCE "O" level english grade.. wow, wat a big portion.. gonna practice the oral skills from today onwards le.. jia you...

L1R4, L1R5.. thinking of the grade i would get.......
end of year is just round the corner.. everyone: JIAYOU WOR..

a short summary of my day today...

*i didnt irritate euu..
so please dun "come and find me"
i'm INNOCENT......*



~missing mr khiat..~
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She Smiled At6:36 PM

this is my 2ooth post in this blog.. =)

"o choir esta alto"..
these are in portuguese language.. to change back to english, it simply means "choir stands tall"..
had design the choir shirt, badge...=) quite happy with it, wonder whose will be selected..

suddenly the feeling occur, drifting further and further apart from some, but at the same time close to others... =/
*if only.............*
[why is there such a feeling called "lonley"..? why must there a word called "ps-ing"?]

i hate this feeling. excruciating feelings. sad. happy. how can i feel both at the same time..? i jus know that it hurts a lot. truth hurts. why cant i be a perfect frenz to others?

*i can never be perfect...*
[i miss euu so much.....]
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She Smiled At2:56 PM

=) felt so happy today.. went to bought the book yearn for "happiness now".. yea, the book that had a lot of hidden meaning in it.. bought it because there is a 20% discount..can save $5.. so buy la, rather than next time no discount den buy.. hehe..

well, went to watch "viliant" today. together with yan ling, ying qi, my sister and freeman.. actually wanted to watch with a few others like li hin, kok kian, vincent, pei shan de... but li hin and kok kian had to go to grandma hse, den pei shan say she has no money and wana study(just let her be...), vincent say he dun wan to.. anyway, didnt spent a lot of time with them today because meet mummy after the show...*sorry gals... and guys..*

manage to learn basic POA.. just a few tips.. my mother was explaining to me what she was studying, so absorb a bit la.. DR and CR.. and bank book... argh. it seems like so interesting but had no time to learn...

"you dont find happiness in the absence of problems.
you find it in spite of problems..."

a short entry to sum up my day..
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She Smiled At11:07 PM

leader..
"make things happen"..
gosh, was being called by mr ong(instructor) to conduct the choir warm up with rebecca... oh, can euu imagine..? it's so... my face just went red striaght away.. my my, keep on laughing and blushing away in front..
oh, never mind.. practise makes perfect..
[if there is a second time, i sure with concentrate more,control my laughter more and try to be a confident leader in front of everyone..]
was so enthu during today's choir practise..

i had become xin ling's 2nd angel..yipee, she was my angel too..
*gonna write more to her*

had a great time taking a walk around the school with cheryl today after school.. our friendship WILL sure improve, i WILL make it happen...

pei shan, mary, yan ling, li hin, jasmine, si jia, cheryl, claudia: the people i have recess with today.. like how we used to be.. *happy =)* great frenz make great day...

mr khiat: was chatting with rebecca.. and we mention about mr khiat.. miss the talking cow lots.. *thinking of him....*

i must jia you for end of year exam le..
*HUIMIN, JIA YOU WOR... EUU CAN DO IT DE..*

*smilez........*
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She Smiled At11:12 PM

a short entry today...
short and simple..

had oral practise the first thing of the day.. mr ong made some good comments on my "speech" but said that the words just before the full stop, should be read downwards.. not upwards..
*learn from mistake...*

had a short 15 min geo test today.. can say it's relatively alright.. but it's only over 15 marks.. meaning, even 1 particular mark is important, perhaps this 1 particular mark will let one pass or let one fail..? who noe?

had a chinese debate with 3e2 today on the topic "guys are weaker in emotions when it comes to relationship.." they did a great job, but i guess they took it too lighty, causing it not so serious, joking around here and there.. yup, was very quiet during the debate.. not feeling well....

=) i'm so glad to solve another misunderstanding... *wide grin*

amaths test tomorrow.. dun have much confidence.. but i WILL try my best...

[there is no need for me to say out loud,
you just have to feel it ]
*because some things need not be spoken aloud as it can be felt in the heart...*
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She Smiled At9:33 PM

oh, how time flies... i always thought there is stil a long way to go before end-of-year examination.. i knew i'm wrong.. the days are drawing nearer and nearer each and every minute..i realise that at first, i could catch up with time(complete hmwk, revise, watch tv, online).. but gradually, i cant..is it that the time speed is not constant(getting faster and faster), or was it mine.. that is not constant...(getting slower and slower)?
gosh, i need a space to breathe..

"laughing is contagious
it is advantages..
ha ha ha ha ha ha
heh heh heh heh heh heh
he he he he he he
ho ho ho ho ho ho HO....

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to mr ong
happy birthday to you..."
3e3 sang this during english period.. or was is life skill period.. anyway, the last four period for today was all taken by mr ong..
*happy birthday mr ong, 17/08*

i dunno why.. but i guess i had slack quite a lot.. was slow while doing the past common test amaths paper today after school... *gonna improve*..
chemistry.. hip hip horray.. i was FINALLY, not the last person to leave the chemistry lab..

average weather, average person, average day for me too...
*thinking too much nowadays*
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She Smiled At5:22 PM

had chemistry test today.. it was quite alright.. i guess and i hope i will pass my overall TA marks for chemistry....

tmr gonna have verbal amaths test on the special angles...
~sin30=1/2 cos30=*3/2 tan 30=*3/3
sin45=*2/2 cos45=*2/2 tan45=1
sin60=*3/2 cos60=1/2 tan60=*3~
(in replacement of square root,i use *)
[memorising the special angles.... hope mr ang wouldnt test about cot, cosec and sec]

the day after tomorrow, there will be a geography test.. gosh, the test is only 15 minutes.. wonder wat kind of question mrs lu will wanna test in 15 min.. such a short period of time..

on friday, there will be an amaths test on chapter 6,7, 8abc... (hoping to score quite well...)

choir today was quite fun... we manage to complete learning the two songs we are gonna present onf of the days in septemeber in the canteen.. felt tat there is a HUGE improvement in choir, however, there are stil rooms of improvement.. we arnt prefect..
*praying that the canteen wouldnt be too noisy that it would cover our voices...*

had a great chat with yan ling today, over the phone.. however, this chat was pretty long and was rather unique cuz we chat about amaths and geography.. my my, i never imagine that i would chat about studies through the phone.. haha...

[perhaps, my words and feelings arnt important anymore...]
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She Smiled At9:32 PM

laugh laugh laugh... i wonder what really happen to me today.. keep on laughing non-stop.. even yusa say i'm a bit insane.. perhaps, i jus wanna be happy.... laughing is one way...

got back social studies results today.. quite happy with my results... oh yes, today got back chemistry second test paper too... *at least these marks have neutralise with my previous test results and i had a passing grade*..

had chemistry third test tmr.. *hope that the paper wouldnt be that difficult..*
had geo second test on thurday...*hope i will do quite well.. cuz i dont wan these results to pull down my social studies results...*
had amaths test on friday..*gosh, had to practice and practice real lots...*

was chatting with pei shan and mary.. suddenly realise that i dont have a goal.. as in to go to poly or to jc.. perhaps, i wouldnt even have the ability to enter jc, so the only choice left is to poly..
~set my targets.. i will aim for them for end of year exam and for GCE O levels too..~

*patience is a bitter plant, but it has sweet fruits..*
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She Smiled At5:26 PM

had quite a few moments of rest, regaining my energy for the packed week starting from tomorrow.. i'm ready.. mentally and physically ready...

went to pay respect to my dead grandpa today morning... but not as early as the past... (i wonder why...) anyway, after that we heed back to my grandma place.. and guess wat..? my sister, my mother and i was sitting at the back of the lorry on the jorney back to my grandma place, and it started raining... gosh, it was drizzling at first and it became heavier.. by then, my dad past us an umbrella when the traffic lights turn red... but.. only ONE umbrella... it's not enough.. by the time we reach my grandma house, we were already all wet... went for shower after that.. felt so, hmmm...relaxed...
oh yes, before tat.. when my father is parking at the multi-storey carpark.. my mother, my sister and i were suppose to alight first... i didnt realise that it was a mulit-storey carpark(the ceiling was low) and i just stand up.. :'( i knock my head... ouch, it was pain.. i wanted to laugh(so that my family members will not be tat worry), but before i realise, tears have been rolling down my cheecks.. it was so painful, i pretended to smile.. but i was exposed...
had a real great dinner with my family.. a BIG family... my 1st auntie and family, 2nd aunt and family, my mum and family, my grandma... such a simple yet meaningful meal...

didnt had much revision today.. but i've prepare for the worst to come... tomorrow, all my schedule will be packed and i will be busy revising and studying.. gosh, wat a busy week..
(but no matter how busy i am, i will just drop by my blog to write a few sentences..)

kai wei!! happy birthday to this junior of mine... (had prepare a birthday gift for her.. wonder if she will like it a not... hmm...)

*tomorrow will be a better start...*
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She Smiled At9:18 PM

bought a box today... place all the letters(that others give me), neoprints, photos, cards inside.. when i look into the box, memories will flash back into my mind..one by one...
took neoprint with my sister today.. cheers, we look rather great....

"did euu recieve any education..? cant euu see that we dont see hokkien mee here...?"the seller of a stall tell me in chinese.. i felt that he is insulting me.. what do he mean by that statement..? oh please, i didnt mean to order hokkien mee at the wrong stall... perhaps, my eyes are making fool of me... cant he tell me in a more polite manner.? human make mistakes, right..? why must he scold me in front of a few people.. it's not that i scared i will "lose face" or watever, but i just wanna stress that his manner is ARGH... too......

grandma is staying overnight at my house... tomorrow morning, my family is gonna pay respect to my grandpa who had left us since 1990,i havnt even seen him before, and he had gone to netherland.. i havnt been very close with grandpa cuz i didnt even noe how he looks like, so his absence didnt really make me feel very sad.. however, this brought me back to the past..i remember last year(september), my cousin had died.. he was then 1/2 years old... he was about to had a heart operation but..... he died when he is in hospital...
I LOVE EUU KADEN... ah jia love euu too..

ever since this incident, it reminds us that we should cherish our life.. our life IS very precious... if euu ever think of commiting suicide, think again.. is it worth it.. others who had been wanting to live, may not have the chance... but we have the chance, therefore we SHOULD make full use of it.. live each day to the fullest....

*memories*
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She Smiled At7:48 PM

being a leader is not as easy as i thought... sectional leader for alto..
~to ensure that everyone knows their part,
to take note of their attendence,
to find out from those people who didnt attend choir lessons why they cant make it,
to commit myself into any activity i do,
to take the lead so that others can follow,
to set up a connection tree(in case of emergency)~
hmmm, i found out that our instuctor is quite a good person.. he organise and plan things ahead, he order and demand everything to be perfect... because of him, i learnt a lot... i knew the roles of a sectional leader..with the previous instructor, a sectional leader just basically ensure everyone is fine with their parts.. full stop. nth else...

suddenly i realise i am a leader myself..
*i am important in some way or another*

putting in the smile on my face.. as long as i can take.. laugh as much as i could..
nowadays, i realise that my life is precious... time is precious... i should live each day to the fullest..i may be crazy at times, but who cares.. ? at least i can make others laugh and be crazy with me..
i have started to mature(in terms of thinking), i have started to think positive..
*i felt so great...*

homework..it's part and puzzle of life... i will strive for better results.. i will try my best to excel but if i dont.. it's alright, at least i have tried my best...

isnt this world beautiful..? isnt everyone of us on this world special in some way or another.. i have learnt to cherish everyone who have stepped into my life..

thanks everyone for adding colours to my life...
*miracle in life*
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She Smiled At6:50 PM

so stress these few days.. saw yan ling blog just now and totally agree with wat she said: "life is like that, if you think you can, YOU CAN... "

nth much happen today.. just that we got back our physics test paper...so glad i pass my physics... :) oh, finally.. i passed.. however, this havnt include the OAS, hope i will pass after adding too...*praying hard.. real hard*...

days seems to be passing at a real fast speed... i'm tie to the HUGE amount of hmwk, classwork, test.... it seems like i no longer can run.. even if i can, i stil cant catch up with time... gonna buck up le...

dear 3e3 classmates, rmb..
"aim for the stars.. dont say euu cant when euu have not even try.. "
jia you for the chemistry test tmr... JIA YOU..

metal+ acid= salt+ hydrogen
metal oxide+ acid= salt+ water
metal hydroxide+ acid= salt+ water
metal carbonate+ acid= salt+ water+ carbon dioxide...
oh, that's the chemical equation..[memorising]

yan ling: get well soon... smile more, kkz..? the pain will soon be gone.. if euu need my flesh to bite on, i can lend euu.. but i believe euu dun need it.. haha...
mummy: take care.. so many pple fall sick and euu are included... jus wanna hope euu get well soon...

xin ling: yea, thanks for being so understanding...
huimin senior: hey, things is alright.. jus a little tense up at times and feeling a little stress..hmm, wat's ur email address, gimme gimme.. so that i can add euu...

*the burden on my shoulders is getting heavier and heavier...*
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She Smiled At9:11 PM

yipee... went to watch movie with my sister, yan ling, marcus, julian... charlie and the chocolate factory(MUST SEE)... hmm, actually wanted to watch it with a lot of pple but amanda, yusa, mary,may yan wasnt free.. at first, we went to bugis to take neoprint with them, yea.. add on to my collection..after that, we went to see the time slot of the movie we wanted but.... in the end, we went back to tampines to watch the wonderful show... they just make GREAT pals... i really like their accompany today...*the wonderful memories*

felt a little guilty for not watching the same movie with xin ling they all... but rest assure, i will the next time.. hmm, wat should i do..? i just felt a little uneasy...

oh, time really flies... before i knew it, or even before euu knew it..the days of term 3 will end, and term 4 will start(everything will start all over again...)
perhaps, perhaps i will be changing my blogskin when term 4 starts... cuz i just realise that i change my blogskin every term... every start of the term.. to symbolise a new start...perhaps, perhaps...

just a short entry today..shall blog more tomorrow..
*felt that i'm so blessed...*
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She Smiled At10:27 PM

happy birthday sinagapore..
today, 9th august 2005, singapore celebrate her 40th birthday...
the day singapore become independent, free from malaysia for the 40th year... ever since year 1965.. hip hip hooray.. i'm a singaporean, so are you.. we are proud to be singaporeans, united as one...

today, i went to my grandma house(every year, i will spent this special day here).. this year, it's the same... we had dinner together and had a great chat.. played with my cousin, kieron.. he reminds me of my childhood.. he is soooo cute..

blogging.. i dont know why but it had become a part of my life.. blogging had become a MUST for me every day, unless i have any special reasons(eg: gone overseas, went home too late).. i really like pen-ing down my thoughts and feelings..

*the days we had...*
HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE!!!
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She Smiled At6:50 PM

"frenz who are near may not be dear.. but frenz that i'm gonna miss for years are frenz of blood and tears"

claudia: sometimes, we may seems so near but yet so far.. but i will never forget the days we had in sec 2.. remember the hokkien song? it symbols our friendship, remember..? i may not be the first wan to be there when euu are sad, are the first wan to be there to share ur happiness.. but trust me, i'll be there for euu.. anywhere, anytime... when the memories flash in my mind, i understand that "a frenz in need is a frenz indeed".. thx for being there for me..
*btw, do euu noe that i'm blushing when i read ur blog..?* anyway, i may not be as good as you think, but i will try to make a good frenz....

yan ling: gal gal, thx for commenting in my blog.. yesyes, the happy moments seems to have been so short.. let me ensure euu that there will be more of these next time.. i recall the days we became school mates.. and to choir mates.. then one step futher, to frenz..and to good frenz and to best frenz.. i really treasure euu..

ying qi: mei mei.. euu have done well today... dont frown, kkz..? dont dwell over to the past, live in the present... i'm always there to lend my shoulder, my ear...thx for trusting me..thanks for always tagging at my tagboard.. simply, a million thanks..

li hin: gal, though we wasnt as close these few days, but i just wan euu to know that euu are unique in some way.. dun feel stress, kkz..? as i remember vivdly the times we quarrel, i thought we were silly.. but at second thought, we wasnt.. this quarrelling strengthen our frenzship, isnt it..? thx for being such a wonderful frenz...

wan ying: euu are indeed a special frenz to me... when i think back the times when we are having "cold war", i fear to lose euu again.. i really cherish euu a lot.. anyway, thx for being there for me.. i'll be there for euu too..

cheryl: cherry, though we may not be together always.. but i'll be there whenever euu need me.. just call me or sms me.. i promise i'll be there..

sze ying: thx for keeping me accompany.. and for the joys that euu have brought to me.. thx for sharing secrets with me...and for trusting me..

si jia, jas: thx for always being so patient with me.. thanks for always creating laughter..

pei shan, mary: zhu zhu.. thx for regarding me as a part of "zhu" family.. thx for bringing me the laughter and for trusting me so much... i believe we will have even more fun days ahead..

xin ling, jia yi: both of euu had add a lot of colours to my life.. thx for being such a great "mixer" of colours.. i love the "colour combination".. ling, thx for being there for me.. yi, thx for keeping me update...

zhi ning, ning en: haha, both 'nings'.. zhi ning, thx for trusting me and telling me secrets.. ning en, thanks ur acc and laughter at the start of the year.. both "nings", i really enjoy the times and chatting we had...

xuan hui, elizabeth, yiru, dianna: my best pals.. dont think that i will ever forget euu guys.. remember the fun and laughter that we had in sec 1..? those days are unforgettable, isnt it..?

stella, shye fern, zul: euu guys have occupy some space in my heart.. this group rawks my sec 3 life a lot.. thx for the wonderful moments...

yi qin, marcus, ling ning, shu jun, yvonne, ting ming: thx for being there to help do the banner.. at that moment, i really felt that power of 3e3, though there are only a few of us...

zul, jackson, wee kiat, kian hao, hanis, ain, rebecca, xin ling, jia yi, hui qi, pei shan, suhaila, fadzilah, wan ling, shye fern and hui min: AMUNDSEN RAWKS.. i will never forget the days we had in the obs.. i'm glad to be int his wonderful and perfect watch.. the days we had...

aloysius: thx for chatting with me in the past.. i really enjoyed ur acc.. hope euu live each day to the fullest ba..

jin guan: though we seldom talk these few days, but i still regard euu as my "brother".. the days we had in sec 2 are memorable.. rest assure that it will be kept in my heart.. i really miss the great times we had..

hong jun: thx for not letting me felt left out.. thx for being there to lend me a listen ear whenever i need it...

julian: sometimes we do quarrel, but eventually it turn out to be okay.. so, dont take things too hard.. thx for being understanding at times.. glad euu understand my situations, i didnt mean it but so gald euu understand..thx for being there for me... rmb, i'll be there for euu too...

wee kiat: if euu have any questions, dun need to feel shy about it, rmb..? euu can always count on me, i'll be there..

**the moments i share with each and everyone is precious.. i really cherish each frenzship..**
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She Smiled At8:29 PM

this national day celebration is the best as compared to the last two years.. well, i dunno, perhaps.. i like to be busy with work, than to be free...(lol, i'm abnormal...)
~clap clap,our 3 booth manage to earn quite some money~too bad, it all goes out to the sch..:'(

after that, we went to zul's auntie house to take some scenes... that was great.. however, hwee ing wasnt wif us... we manage to complete the mtv shooting by today..(wohoo, *so happy*)..
just love the short period of time woth zul, shye fern and stella.. they WERE great.. how i wish these moments will last.. but everything will have a start and an end.. we are gonna part soon, but i believe our bonding will never break.. :)

AMUNDSEN... i miss amundsen lots.. the happy moments flash in my mind when i was searching for something and came acroos the STRING, the string of love.. gosh, i still remember the last moment.. the touching wan...
[zul, jackson, wee kiat, kian hao, hanis, ain, rebecca, xin ling, jia yi, hui qi, pei shan, suhaila, fadzilah, wan ling, shye fern and hui min]
the days we had.... we went through thick and thin...

went to the playground today.. it brought back a lot of childhood memories... though it may sound childish, but i really enjoyed myself today...

*be content...*
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She Smiled At8:11 PM

wohoo.. met up with yan ling, stella and sze ying today MORNING.. to do the banner for our booth(song dedication) for tomoorow.. it turns out to be quite alright.. we spent bout 1 hour doing tat.. i really had a great time with all of them, chatting and laughing together.... i enjoyed the short period of time with them...

around EVENING, i went to do banner again.. this time with different people and different banner theme(hit the clowns).. hmm, do the banner thingy with yi qin, zul, marcus, yan ling, li hin, ling ning, shu jun.. after some time, ning en, yvonne and ting ming came too.. we had real great fun together too.. i enjoyed myself with these few people.. the same feeling i had in the MORNING.. gosh, we saw a bee hive while we were doing the banner... we warned the passer-by and called the police..however the police asked us to called 1990-325-8888.. hmm, we did a good deed today...(lol..)..i fed the pple with tibits.. hmm, so funny..

i really enjoyed myself today..doing banner and those chatting and jokes we shared..
*the moments we share.. it makes my heart melt... felt so happy today*

i'm getting real excited for tomorrow.. i believe that tmr WILL be a great day..
~the power of 3e3~

does the word "forever" exist..?
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She Smiled At12:18 PM

blood.. the whole tissue is filled with MY blood... gosh, the sight makes me wanna puke.. i cant stand it anymore.. i cried.. the tears seems to be dripping on my wound, which make it more hurt.. i wiped away my tears, and stop the bleeding.. it's my carelessness that lead to this.. i accidently knock onto the cupboard-the handle.. and moreover it was my left knee that hitted the handle directly.. ouch, it hurts lot, cuz the pervious wound havnt recover completely and now....(this happen last night.. gosh, i'm left alone cuz all the members in my family have long been asleep..) sob :'(
wan ying: thx gal gal.. hope i didnt scare euu yesterday nitez while i cried over the phone when chatting with euu.. and thx for telling me wat to do etc, cuz i was at loss wat to do next when i first hitted the cupboard's handle..

FUN.. today's mtv outing was great.. but hwee ing was absent with apologies.. haha, we film the shots quite a few times, so that we have quite a number of shots to choose from.. the acting part was funny and fun.. *my group members are just too great... like this arrangement..* talking bout this, i miss the first grouping (ning en, mary, nicholas, wan ling) as well as the second term grouping too(yi qin, shenny, olivia, atiqah..) the third term is coming to an end soon, going to have new arrangement again.. sobz, dun bear to leave this wonderful group.. i hate parting..
back to topic, today's mtv was real fun, we crack lots of jokes... the whether was real hot today, but luckily, it didnt rain today..~yipee, getting so excited to see the final product..~

zul, shye fern, stella, hwee ing: thx for making the group such a great one.. i really like this grouping.. thx for adding colours to my life.. euu guys will always be in my memories...
*euu present me the best days...*

national day is just round the corner... so excited bout the events we had on monday.. but i guess i wouldnt be able to spent all my coupons ba... will be busy that day... busy busy busy...
let me wish singapore a happy birthday...

*me and euu.. hand in hand..*-came across this phrase while browsing through blogs.. so sweet!

~oh, i hate partings... ~
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She Smiled At2:49 PM

wonderful memories...
i believe these memories will last forever..
*hand in hand, we walked through miles and miles..
may we be frenz 4eva*
-to all my frenz out there, i really cherish every friendship, hope we will be frenz 4eva..

quite happy with my emaths test results.. but ooops, there.. i spotted the same mistake again... careless mistake... hmm, but not as serious as the amaths test that day... got to work on this, had to be very CAREFUL le..

sectional leader.. gosh, i didnt know that this role was so important until today.. with the previous instuctor, miss chan, a sectional's role is just to ensure that the section know their parts well, and sing it will them a few times.. howver, with this new instuctor, mr ong, a sectional leader had to work out a network connection.. in case of emergency, the news will be spread very quicky among the section.. besides that, the sectional leader have to hold responsibility if one of them didnt come for choir and did mention that to him/her but he/she didnt tel the instuctor.. the sectional leader, of course had to ensure everyone knows their part...
hmm, with these responsibilty, i felt that i'm quite important, in the sense.. haha, in any way, i WILL try my very best to improve my section, and of course the choir...
*the choir seems to be improving...*

~the memories~
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She Smiled At7:28 PM

"you have ten more minutes left.."gosh, i was rushing throughout the whole social studies paper, there is just simply not enough time.. haiz, get used to it le, every social studies test, we will be rushing like mad dogs... *gosh, just praying that i could pass...*

mtv filming.. well, will be carrying out of "plan" from tmr onwards when we got our video camera... i guess it's gonna be fun.. but oh, there goes my "holidays".. haiz, schedule is really packed man...

*this is the term i can say i enjoyed myself the most..(obs, mtv project, company from friends, all the laughter...) but could also say the term where i failed the most subjects...(amaths, chemistry... :'( sob sob)*

these few days, i realise that i become more cheerful than ever and i even learnt and tried to think positive.. i guess there is a change in me... i felt so delighted... though there are times of difficulties(failures, problems) but i manage to pull through those crisis, and BELIEVE that i can do better the next time.. i also understand the phrase: "live each day to your fullest as though it was your last... dont regret.." hmmm, these few days, keep laughing for no reasons... this IS a good sign.. everyday, i will try to make myself happy...

shye fern: hope euu are feeling better now..
li hin: thanks for ur acc during recess... be happy, kkz..?
yan ling: thx for being crazy wif me and laughing wif me..
pei shan: thx for the "m & n" chocolate.. will be my turn to buy chocolate soon... haha...
mary: thx for the laughter euu brought to me..

*a change in me*
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She Smiled At8:36 PM

wat can i say about today's emaths test.. wat else can i say...?? all thanks to my stupid careless mistake AGAIN that i lost 1 to2 marks.. oh gosh, when can i be careful.. isnt tat amaths experience painful enough.. but luckily, this time round.. my careless mistake wasnt that bad.. hmm, it will SURE improve as days go by..

social studies... so many facts in my mind..*cant imagine the scene whereby we have to prepare for o levels.. by then, more facts will be added on...* anyway,pple out there.. jia you ba..

packed.. my scedule seems to be packed.. oh, time flies... it is already the start of august.. when i look behind, i had a lot of wonderful memories.. and they seems so fresh.. it felt like just yesterday....

y leg stil hurts a little..*hope to recover soon*...

genie: thanks for ur comments.. euu too, dun think too much.. though we failed chemistry, but i'm sure we will improve if we try harder.. yea,smile...

aloysius: thx for the sweets today.. really appreciate it a lot.. thx boi.. *hoping that euu are coping well wif ur studies....*

~euu present me the best memories...~
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She Smiled At8:00 PM

as expected, i failed my chemistry.. my heart sank to the bottom... i knew i had to buck up le..
physics test.. slightly better than the past..? yes, i think i will pass... of course, i had made the worst preparation to fail but i guess, and i hope this preparation is not needed...

stella, hwee ing, yee han, yan ling, mary, pei shan: so sorry for what have happen today.. i promise that this would NEVER ever happen again...

"there are no failures but LEARNING EXPERIENCES" these words are said by mr ong.. his words made me felt better.. though i failed chemistry by 7 marks, failed amaths by 1 mark due to careless mistake... these are just obstacles that will made me score better in the next test..

i CHOOSE to believe i can do it.. yes, i CAN do it..
~tmr will be a better day.. ~
"Take each day as it comes, life is stressful enough.

Do not look back and grieve over the past,
there's nothing much you can do about it.

Do not worry about the future,
for it has yet to come.

As long as it is called today,
cherish it!

Live this day as if it was your last,
and you will find each day worth living for you"
-these words really encourage me a lot..


CHOIR..yeah, choir was real fun today.. we learn a new song today.. i have been appointed to be the sectional leader of alto, i WILL definitely try my very best de...
CHOIR, woshoo.. one of the best part of my secondary life...

"Amundsen rocks" yea, looking forward to the amundsen gathering with shu xian in september... sms her today, wow, she stil remember me.. *happy happy*

mr khiat: thx for ur constanly support.. thx for showing me that life is still beautiful though i sometimes fall... thx for going to the expense to buy those things for me, sorry.. but i really like and appreciate it a lot..to me, euu are so wonderful..

miss chew: thx for passing me things.. thx for always being there to care for me.. i really appreciate all ur care and concern.. to me, euu are a great teacher..

"If you think you are beaten, you are,
If you think you dare not, you are right.
If you like to win, but you think you can't,
it is almost certain you won't.

If you think you'll lose, you've lost.
For out of the world we find,
Success begins with a person's will,
It's all in the state of mind

If you think you are outclassed, you are,
You've got to think high to rise
You've got to be sure of yourself
before you can even win a prize.

Life's battles dont always go to
the stronger or faster man,
but sonner or later the man who wins
is the man who thinks he can"
arn't these words meaningful..? i guess it had just melt my heart.. try reading it over and over again, and the mroe you will find it more meaningful..

*there are always obstacles in life..*
though i have failed two test at a go, but these wouldnt stop me from moving on..
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She Smiled At5:24 PM

physics.. gosh, learning and applying the concept is DIFFERENT.. i understand the concept, however when it comes to applying the concept in the question, i will be like "huh, why are there so many information given when we only need three of them.. haiz..."
physics and chemistry is driving me crazy..

today keep laughing over small little stuffs, or for no particular reason.. dunno why, is this a good signal or a bad wan..? *hehe... *there i go again...

chemistry: gosh, there are only a small number of passers for this test.. *sob sob* i guess there will be a small chance that i will pass le..

going online for a little while nia.. will be going off to eat dinner,after that will continue with my physics..

*laughing is contagious...*
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She Smiled At6:18 PM

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