education is important BUT health is MORE important.
-qouted from zuanzhe.

She Smiled At2:33 PM

"i love walking in the rain for no one knows i'm crying."
i didnt believe this quote until i really experience it.

the biggest decision i have come up with is to focus on studies.
that's really wise.(=

i notice that i couldnt recognise the gal standing as i look into the mirror.
this is because this gal is far too scary.
she seems quiet but in fact, she have a lot of sorrows in her.
anyway, i don't even intend to befriend with her.
just leave her alone.
perhaps after o's, i'll confront her.

tired.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:58 PM

impurity.

mummy's words pierce through my heart.
perhaps she didnt know she have hurt me badly.
bad enough for me to cry for hours.

maybe afterall, she's right.
i'm just a nobody.

as i read through my past entries, i came to realise that time flies.
in less than 2 weeks, we'll all be taking our major exams.
success comes from right mindset.(=
let's all run the last lap together with confidence.

"please focus for this coming exams.
put all other things aside.
sort them out only after the exams"
-meaningful words from my god-mummy and god-daddy.

_strong yet weak._
_simple yet complicated_
_socialable yet alone_
_clever yet stupid_
_innocent yet cunning_
_quiet yet noisy_
_mature yet childish_

i will try to control my tears.
it's just not the right time to talk about other stuff except studies.

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At10:53 PM

~i may be smiling but who will knows i'm crying deep inside me?

those feelings just excuriate me.

i look into the mirror and couldnt recognise the gal standing in front. i have lost myself.

i tried to numb myself with studies. and yes, i did succeed. but when i'm left all alone at nitez, wild thoughts cross my mind again.


i'm uncertain of my feelings.
what the hell am i thinking?

i hate myself.

maybe it's time to be alone.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At4:18 PM

argh! i cant upload those photo.

went to seoul garden today.
my gathering is always awesome.

"aiya, leave it to tomorrow".
this is the typical statement commonly used by humans,isnt it?
i'm no exception.

was sort of slacking the whole day.
mummy gave me the permission to do so.=x
but i'll study more tomorrow.really!

simplication
[my heart aches]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At12:55 AM

big big sigh.
i'm in a mess.
and i'm trying to get out of it.

nothing is going to let me lose focus and concentration for this big o's.
NOTHING.

[it's really not worth it to flunk one's exam because of other factors]

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At9:59 AM

i usually update myself by reading others' blog for everyone is busy at this crucial moment.
oh, i shouldnt read dianna's blog.
she forced me to do this. nah, not really force.=x

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
- strong yet weak
- simple yet complicated
- socialable yet alone
- clever yet stupid
-innocent yet cunning
-emotional
-contradicting

7THINGS THAT SCARES ME:
-insects
-ghosts.LOLS.
- dogs
-cats
-being all alone
-lost in an unfamilar place
-pple who duno me well confess to me.=.=!

7 FAVOURITE MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
- eyes on me
- you're my number 1
-i knew i love you
-when it all falls apart
-hero
-i turn to you
-lonely

7 PEOPLE I FANCY
[7people? can i write 7groups of people?]
-yanling
-yingqi
-juvone
-cheryl
-mummy
-daddy
-huijia meimei
~sigh, why cant i state more?i wan mention my group of frenz de leh~

7THINGS I SAY MOST:
- perhaps, maybe, probably
- wei
-byebye
-okies
-then
- so
-lame

7 THINGS I LIKE MOST:
- handphone
- appreciation letters from friends
- my big and small bear bear
- photos i took with friends and family
- pillowcase
- gifts from others
-home sweet home

7 PEOPLE NEXT TO DO THIS:
-nurril
-rebecca
-candy.[we're gonna keep in contact like this.lols.]
-yingqi
-yanling
-zhining
-juvone

i just ate the sweetest lollipop.
=)

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At10:25 PM

if secondary school life is a video.
all i can comment is that everything seems to be in the "fast-forward" mode.
there is really not much time left to o's.

we just gonna do it good, once and for all.=)

should i go jc or poly?
well, i should leave this question unanswered till after o's.
the main thing is to score well now. so i can go anywhere i wanna go,isnt it?

i'm doing fine with both emaths and amaths,as well as physics.

however, i need help in humanities. argh.
i know it better myself that i got my facts right.
but the problem is that i didnt link back to question.
i want to click on the "emergency" button, can i?

i don't want to give up on my chemistry either.
i'm gonna save it, somehow or rather.
=)

oh gosh, why is my entry all about studies?
i guess studies is the main part of my life right now.

and once again, i'm blogging.
like what nurril mention, we are addicted to blogging.


bearbear!
one belong to my sis, while another belong to me.
anyway, which is more cute?




simple. simplify. simplified. simplification.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At1:25 PM

my eyes were once again, watery.
this time round not because of studies or relationship.
but because of a blog entry.
mr ong's blog entry had really touched me.
i regonise his contribution to the school, as well as to the class.
seriously, i regonise them.
he is one of the great teachers i admire.

anyway, i had clear my doubts about physics.
isnt miss neo awesome?
she doesn't mind explaining things over and over again until we get it right.
what else can i say? she's one great teacher.

I LOVE 3E3'05/4E3'06 our perfect memories.

sad to mention, i'm so into blogging.
i know i am suppose to be studying now.
but here i am, coming online to blog.
on the flip side of the coin, coming online also doesn't means that i didnt study.=x

oh well, studies is my priority now.
nothing is more important than studies at this crucial moment.

"you're my number 1"
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At4:14 PM

Create Your Own!

She Smiled At9:51 PM

graduated.

somehow, i dun wish to leave.
there are just so much beautiful memories i wana hold on to.
as i upload those photos i took, i almost teared.
those wonderful moments i spent in jyss will never be erase.

power of e3,05' and o6'.
as a class, we have gone through thick and thin.
-the very first time the whole class acted on stage for total defence day.[05']
-be the very first batch of students to go for OBS.[05']
-be the first class to have three booths for national day[o5']
-take the lead by painting the window pane.[05']
-got into groups and prepare presents for teachers on teacher's day.[05']
-the first time we experience debates.[05']
-we made history being making the first mtv in school.[05']
-to experience so much fun while taking class photo with those soft toys.[05']
-to quarrel with the class while organising bbq and chalet.[05' and 06']
-to be so united as a class.[05' and 06']
-to chiong for exams.[05' and 06']
-to exchange valentine's day messages.[06']
-attend adam khoo's workshop and show appreciate through letters.[06']
-once again, be the first class to make documantary.[06']
-to prepare dance steps and rehearse them million of times for international friendship day.[06']
-to go crazy on national day.[06']
-cry cuz we hurt someone so special to us.[06']
-suprise teachers on teacher's day.[06']
-to skip lessons as a class.[06']
-to dance together once again on graduation day.[06']

i'm sure gonna miss everyone.
especially.
4e3,06'.
amundsen members.[05']
my close bunch of funky frenz in 1e2,03'.[elizabeth, yiru, dianna, xuanhui, cheryl, aloysius]
the crazy frenz and moments in 2e3,04'.
tchaikovsky.[zul.stella, shye fern, hwee ing]
tenacious.[marcus, shye fern, ting ming]
choir moments.
my closest click of frenz.[yanling, jasmine, sijia, peishan, mary, yingqi]
the guy gang where i feel belonged.[hongjun, zuan zhe, jackson, jinguan, julian, brandon, wengboh]
my m&m.[amanda]
my aiai.[eunice]
my moon.[elizabeth]
my baobei.[rebecca]
my joyful memories.[hongjun]
my tenyears frienship.[cheryl]
my best malay frenz.[bariah]
my "everything" frenz.[yanling]
my beloved dianna and stella.
my forever crazy liping and aik kun and claudia.
my special someone i can always turn to.[wanying]
my so unique acted-couple.[zul]

my life will not be completed without them.
my perfect life.
=)

to add on, mr khiat, mrs khiat, mr ang.k.k, mr ang.k.s, mr jason ong, miss neo, mr chan, madam fauziah, mrs oh.
had made a great impact in my life too.

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At12:16 AM

tmr will be the big day for me.
and for all the sec 4s.
GRADUATION day.

i believe it's gonna be a great day.
i also believe everyone will do well for o's.
=)

those moments we spent will never be forgotten.
power of e3, 05' and 06'.

i just wanna smile tomorrow.
with no sorrow behind this smile.

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:53 PM

just what's wrong with me?
am i too stress up?
i don't seems to be like the usual me these few days.

"the more you study,
the more you forget.
and the more you forget,
the more you study."
-what interesting quote.

i just wanna put aside everything and concentrate on studies.
i'm determine to do so.

i accept the fact that i cant please everyone.

i'm just myself.

so mentally tired.
but i'm hanging on.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At10:25 PM

bear with me, it's a long post.

mooncake festival.
a day where i enjoyed myself.
as i mention, i'll upload some photos.













a symbol of friendship.
isnt this beautiful?













J stands for Jackson, Julian and Jinguan.
cheers to the Js in our "gang".xD














we just love playing with candles, don't we?
H stands for Huimin and Hongjun.
best frenz forever.













Z only represent our dearest ZuanZhe.=p














this alphabet has a lot of meaning to it.
B stands for Brandon.
it also stands for wengBoh.
B represent zuanzhe, our BOSS.=)
B stands for best frenz.














one word to describe this heart-shape.
perfect.
well, this is done by jinguan.
that's why i said, maybe guys are better than gals in some aspects.
LOLS.

these are all the photos i had taken on friday nitez.
wanted to take a picture of the awesome moon.
but sigh, the haze just made it rather imperfect.

anyway, there are still photos of these group of funky guys frenz of mine.
those photos were taken on thursday, when we skip ss lessons and went out instead.
=x
however, i shall upload them another time.
perhaps, tomorrow.
cuz it really takes quite some time for the photos to load.















a photo of sister and i.
we were on the way to attend my cousin's wedding.
not really the grand wedding, but just a celebration after she register in ROM.
it had been quite some time since my sister and i took photos.
maybe it's because of studies.
















my happy family.
they rawks my world.

anyway, i must thank dianna for making my day yesterday.
i was so touched when i read her blog.
she's just one great frenz of mine.
i promise we shall catch up after o's.

chatted with claudia, the birthday gal just now.
it had been a real long time since we chat.
we chatted a lot, the bonding is still there.=)

zhining.
well, another gal in my life.
we update each other by reading each others blog only.
seldom chat.
we two are so cute.
=x

seems like i have a lot of catching up to do after the o's.
my schedule may be packed.

*happy birthday to claudia.
*happy birthday to chee leong.
*happy birthday to mr ong.[choir instructor]















a picture paints a thousand words.

yes, i'm blessed with so many pple around me who care and love me.
and i'm grateful for this fact.

but when i'm alone, i feel so empty.
i think a lot.

simple yet complicated
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At10:34 PM

i'm tired of everything.

the sorrow behind my smile.

[p/s: the haze is getting from bad to worst, everyone please takecare of yourself.]
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:59 AM

i'm so blessed so have a group of funky frenz around me.
hongjun. zuanzhe. jinguan. julian. jackson. brandon.
they never fails to make me smile.

i took a lot of photos with this bunch of funky frenz.
shall upload them tomorrow.
=)

before i forgot, i shall blog about yesterday.
i went out with this bunch of guy frenz.
wanted to watch "you, me and dupree".
but guess what? it's NC16.
in the end, we still didnt get through at the ticket corner.
instead, we catch another movie, "stay alive"
not a bad show after all.

at times, i think about my close relationship i had with these guys.
i mean hello, isnt it weird?
when a gal hangs out with about six to seven guys only?
but after much thinking, who cares?
i just love their accompany.
like i said, they never fails to make me smile.
=)

it was mooncake festival today.
it reminds me of yanling.

anyway, the usual guy gang and i went to the park.
played with candles and stuff.
the moon was so beautiful.
if only there was no haze.

hongjun was so sweet today.
he didnt break his promise.
he caught hold of the moon and gave them to me.
only he knows what i mean.
wahaha.
*sorry nurril, i praise him again.=p*

oh yes, nurril was so bad.
she didnt join us tonitez.
but it's alright.
at least she apologise.

is it true that guys are better than gals in some aspects?
i always believe that gals are equally same as compared to guys.
but today jinguan sort of prove me wrong.
he did such a perfect heart shape using candles.
this is one thing i always failed to do.
oh well, maybe guys are really better than gals in some aspects.

sigh. i made jackson worried bout me again.
sorry, i thought i just wanna be alone for a while.
i didnt wanna play "hide-and-seek" with you.

yanling. sijia. jasmine. peishan. mary. yingqi.
the study break had just began.
and i already start missing those people whose name were mention.
especially yanling.

anyway, i was so suprise when i recieve a love letter.
it was so well-written that i thought he copied it.=x
it's well-kept in my cupboard.

the last thing i wish to mention is.
i thought i break another heart or two.
sigh.
why must such complicated love exist in this world?

it's a tiring day for me.
mood swings?
just experience so much emotion today.
LOLS.

mugging time.
yipee.
just do it once and do it good.
=)

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:58 PM

i once said i never believe in love at first sight.
but after yesterday's incident, i change my perspective about this.
perhaps, there's really such stuff.

i had great fun yesterday at mr ong's house.
mr ong is my choir instructor.
well, we celebrated his birthday by cooking a meal for him.
everyone is great in the kitchen except me.
i felt so so guilty for messing everything up when i cut my finger.
the guilt overpowered the pain on my finger.

the cut is so deep.
sigh, wat ugly scars.
[p/s: sry pple, for making you all worry.]

hong jun was right.
i'm gonna be a bad wife.
cant cook.
lalala.
=x

everything was just great yesterday.

and i didnt know he was that romantic.
but too bad, i spoilt everything.
[he should know who he is.]

sometimes i feel lousy bout myself.
but when i remembered what hongjun said,
i feel so much better.
he said i'm friendly, cute, sweet, pretty, adorable and soft-hearted.
some may not be true, but at least he makes me feel that i'm wanted.
xD
hong jun just rawks la.

enough of fun.
i need to pull up my socks le.
especially for physics, chemistry and humanities.
huimin, i know you can do it.
xD

somehow, i miss yanling.
though we still meet almost everday these few days.
i'm so afraid to lose her.
i fear that i'll be forgotten.
she's just so special to me.

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:25 AM

Single, taken or crushing?
single.

Are you happy with your life now?
of course, i'm so blessed.XD

When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
err, i don't think so.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes.='(

Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
never. why be with someone when u're gonna cheat on him/her?
[ooops.=x copied from nurril, cuz i have same thinking.]

Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
i used to think it's ok if he realise his mistake.
but now, i think otherwise.
the scar he made in your heart the moment he cheats you will always be there.

Have you ever talked about marriage with another before?
yipee. that's fun.

Do you want children?
i'm not sure. had thought about it, but havnt came out with an answer.=p

How many?
i don't even know i wanna have kids not.LOLS.

Would you consider adoption?
hmmm, most likely no.

If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
best way? any way is fine with me EXCEPT face-to-face.
haha, i don't think i'm answering to the question. oh, never mind.=p

Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
nah, relationships are so complicated. i like simple stuff. *bleah*

Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
erm, can i don't answer this? haha.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
no. i had never believe this.

Are you romantic?
i'm not sure, no one have ever said i'm romantic.
but i'm sure i'll be romantic if i'm a guy.=p

Do you believe you can change someone?Into a better person?
i dunno how to answer cuz no one have ever told me tat i've changed them.
and i'm slow. i dunno whether they change or not.LOLS.

If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
somewhere where there is snow.=)
but again, i'm still young to think of all these.

Do you have feelings for someone right now?
i have feelings for everyone. is this counted?

Have you ever broken a heart?
i have not literally broke a heart yet.
haha,ya ya. i'm evil, i broke a lot of others' heart.

If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do?
i dun think my best friend have the same taste as me. so this is most likely out of question.

Are you missing someone now?
yes. very much.

nurril made me do this.
shouldnt have read her blog.
LOLS.

now, the sabotage begins.
i would like
1. rebecca.
2.stella
3.huijia
to do these too.
sry. xD

my L1R4 and L1R5 is making me worried.
it' getting me nowhere.
what to do?
just have to do much more better for o's.

i had lots of thinking to do for today.
i need to kiss.
[kiss=keep it short and simple]

my mugging begins.
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At2:12 PM

"if you brood about what is over, you will only cause damage to the future"
somehow or rather, this had motivate me a lot.
i always knew that cow family cares for me.

no matter how hard i tried to smile today, i still cant fake one out.
i have attitude problem again.
and it was all because of studies.
after which, i figured out that it's not worth it at all.
like what the above qoute have mention.
it's no use dwelling on what's over.
let's focus on the future, the O's.
the big big O's.

life is not all about studies.

jin guan had tried a lot of ways to make me smile.
knowing that he's not really good with words, i passed him for cheering me up.
xD
here's my smile.
he is just so sweet.

sometimes, a five cent sms may seems to be of no use.
but this five cent sms hongjun had sent me today, had made my day.
he make me laugh at the joke he sent.
he's just one great frenz i know i can always rely on.

yeah.
one great news.
prom nitez is ON.
isnt this wonderful.
*excited*

i realise that studies is not as important as family and friends.
i'm blessed to acknowledge the fact that people around me care.

[p/s: jackson, i'm really sorry.
i didnt mean to show you any attitude.
i really mean no harm.
thanks for tolerating all my rubbish.]

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:34 PM

science stream in tampines junior college?
engineering course in temesak poly?
business course in temasek poly?

well, where should i go after my o's?
i cant go far, with my prelims results.
sigh.

never mind, i know my o levels results will be much better.
i will make sure more options are open for me cuz of my results.

guess what?
it is sunday, 11am in singapore.
and it is saturday, 11pm in the states.

i miss my cousin, wenyin.
she's stuck in the states, due to some business contract.
poor thing, she yearn to come back to singapore.
hope to see her during chinese new year 2007.

i'm running the final lap of my secondary school.

signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:59 AM

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