"thanks for coming all the way down here.."- lay khim handed $40 over to me.. i had made a few new friends at the mediacorp yesterday as i was there attending a group discussion on sports.. it was, quite interesting..
i had done some notes for the coming up, mini-exam.. getting so stress up.. i am very DETERMINE not to get last in class..
"A failure that is fatal is
NOT when you try and fail
BUT when you fail to try"
a short entry oday.. very busy and stress up nowadays...
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At8:31 PM

"mp means to grow ofter while mf means louder.."-miss chan(choir instuctor) reminded us again.. "choir was getting better every practice.."i wonder if others feel the same..aiming for at least a bonze this syf..
had some stuggling whether to go choir a not today.. had a little quarrelling with pei shan today.. i would like to apologise to her here.. "pei shan, i'm sorry if i have hurt you.." after this incident, out friendship somehow streghten(a good thing to celebrate).. cheers.. found out that no matter what she is still one of my good buddy.. i would olso like to thank li hin for being a "sandwhich" in between me n pei shan when we are having cold war.. thanks pal..
early in the morning, i thought "how..? wat should i do..? should i just admit it or apolgise to mrs quek when she step into class..?" i remain silent instead and luckily i did.. because mrs quek didn't check on the green file that she wants us to bring today.. so lucky..
during amaths period, i went to the white board to do a sum though i noe that my answer is wrong.. mr ang correct my mistake and the whole class learn from it..
the days are drawing nearer and nearer to the fearful days of examination.. havn't prepare much.. just done some notes for chemistry and physics.. wonder how am i goin to survivr in elective geography and physics paper... life is getting more dull than usual.. perhaps we are all overwhelm by stress.. *hope that the results in the ned will reflect on the efforts i had made*
"pei shan, i'm really sorry if i have hurt you.. i didn't mean it too.."
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At7:30 PM

"such a waste, i know the initial colour is green-blue+yellow.. but i write yellow"well, that was chemistry test.. don't wish to talk about it anymore.. even if i am here grumbling, nothng can change the result already.. had amaths hmwk, amaths cw, emaths hmwk, emaths cw... will do until "siao".. but nvm, everything, be it sweat, hardwork or anything is worth the result in the end..
10 more days-w/o counting today....... to, to the day we die, haha, just kidding.. to mini-exam.. quite scared as it is the first exam taken in sec 3.. i think i will slack a lot because sec 3 is a tougher year..
today, after school.. went to locker and went home with yan ling.. we saw wan ying on the way back.. i think she wanted to say hi to her or something so i support her by teling her to make the first move.. but.. i think she still don't have the courage to talk to her-dunno why.. by the way, she was as usual quiet, making me sound so noisy.. haha, cant blame others when i am noisy.. i was soundly asleep when my father wake me up for dinner.. i think this is the best, most peaceful nap i had in week 8.. i cant take it anymore, i am so tired that my mind was blank when i was doing my amaths hmwk.. there are still some questions unanswered.. but nvm, the hmwk is due only next tuesday..
"most of the time, students become exhausted and tired when it come to week 8 and 9.. however, when it came to week 10, students would become more alert.. maybe because they find that once the week is over, there will be a short break(eg:march holiday)...- this was what our chinese teacher told us today.. i find it very true..
mary also told me that life was monotonous.. and we are always repeating the same routine over and over again.. we will go home after school, and do our endless homework.. when we finally complete, thinking that we can rest, it was already time for bed.. then morning arrive.. and it was the start of the new day.. and that everything repeat all over again..
i think most of us mst have been sick and tired of these life, right..? i'm afraid to know my class position even though i had prepare for the worst to arrive..
"i am like a small fish in a big pond, no longer a big fish in a small pond... i must use a lot of energy to swim in this pond full of stones, and i must swim a longer distance than other big fish in the pond.. but the result is still that the bigger fish in the pond get the food..."
don't understand..? let me rephrase it.. i am like the last few that got into 3e3.. i am the last few, no longer the top few like the past.. i must work very hard to overcome the obstacles i had.. i must also work harder than the others.. but the result is still that i am the last few..
"anything is worth it.. as long as the result shows my hardwork.. "

She Smiled At8:30 PM

pei shan, mary, li hin, yan ling and I are in the same team in pe... our opponenet in that match is stella, li ping, aik kun, grace and sze ying.. we had so much fun playing and "snatching" the balls and scoring too..
was not veri happy with my amaths results cuz i had made a very big careless mistake.. but at least i pass.. i will aim higher the next time round.. oops, forget to bring the amaths homework book two.. luckily, Mr Ang didn't scold us..
Physics was so boring.. couldn't understand what miss neo was saying.. had four periods of english with Mr Jae.. quite fun during group work..
so sad, we are going to part soon.. will not get a chance to group with them again.. namely, mary.. ning en, wan ling......and and.. haha, dun wanna to mention the last one..
had done some revision for the chemistry test tomorrow..
"patience is a bitter plant, but it has sweet fruits!" i agree with what Mr Jae had mentioned earlier today.. we shouldn't have the thinking of "if only i am not in this class, i wouldn't have had so much stress".. as we choose this class ourselves..
i think that's all... anything is worth it as long as you regard as nothing happen.. if you were me,am I worth it...?
"patience is a bitter plant, but it has sweet fruits!"

She Smiled At4:57 PM

DREAM.......
"Dreams can come true"-this was what my primary school principal had mentioned while addressing the primary six students before leaving east view primary school. I remember vividly that i was im east view primary school, together with my sister. Tears roll down my cheeks when i saw her crying over the PSLE result. She had dream to get into express but the fact wasn't so. I understand her too well, i know how her felt when this sentence is repeated at the end of the session.
Can dreams come true? i paused and found out that i can't answer the question. i think back, if dreams can come true, then why did my dearest sister get into normal acadamic? I know she had been working so hard, but for what? The only reason is for her dream to come true.
i dream of becoming a mathematics teacher.i do feel stress at time but by having my dream and treating it honestly,no stress is too difficult or meaningless to handle at all.
sometimes, i really wish to sleep forever and never wake up.That's because of the pleasent dream i made. How could if dreams can come true, isn't it?
dreams..... dreaming of myself.......

She Smiled At12:41 PM

"a triangle have an area of..............."omg, i was stuck upon seeing such difficult questions in the amaths test today.. and this is not the only question that is difficult, there are still quite a few more about simplification and solving the equation.. i have loss a total of 12 marks.. i think if, i say IF i never make any careless mistake, i will pass by half a mark.. hope i didn't make a single careless mistake.... or, or.. i will failed AGAIN..
i counted my english marks over and over again, hoping that i have counted wrongly perviously.. but.. no change in marks.. i still get 24 marks out of 50... i shouldn't have use correction fluid/tape.. if i havn't use it, i would have gotten a passing grade..haiz, actually i pass but because i use correction tape... sob sob.. fail by 1 mark.. hope to pass the next time round..
chemistry test is coming soon.. so scared.. have made some notes to revise.. i was so scared of failing physics cuz i really dun quite understand what miss neo say.. i did raise up the matter to her.. once again, she explain unclearly..i still dun understand.. now, i think have to rely on myself to do some self-studying.. getting so stress by all the work...
i think you still care for me, right..? or why would you have bother to ask him to show me so concern cuz i fail my english....? u care, just that you don't wanna show it out...right..? anyway, i am really quite happy to hear you at last say a "hi" to me FIRST today.. wrote a letter to you, but don't know whether to give you a not... after all, i am still happy for what you have done-talking to me.. hehe, you are always someone special in my heart.. hope you feel the same too..
"happy.. and sad... how can i have feel both at the same time..?"
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At7:36 PM

life was mundane.. was quite stress due to the mini-exam coming only a few weeks later.. hoping not to get last in class.. feel so angry when pple don't contribute ideas to their groups(on the theme of the notice board) and.. all they contribute are sacastic laughter.. i stress again on the word SACASTIC.. why are they like that..? when the joke is really funny, they do laugh.. but in a sacastic manner making the joke not funny at all.. but at first it was.. why do pple behave in this manner..? i was so piss off by this although it doesn't really concern bout me..
thanks for being there for me.. namely stella, sze ying, yan ling, cheryl, yiru... thanks pal.. but i'm really feeling quite down these few days..
what have this world become...? it seems like everyone have changed... i agree that everyone is changing every now and then.. but what i mean is like everyone had changed 360 degree, upside down.. ok, fine.. not all, but SOME.. why must there be problems existing..? without problem, friendship wouldn't have been broken. and people wouldn't have commit suicide.. life wouldn't have been so miserable.. thing wouldn't have become like this..
there is no use crying over spilled milk.. i understand this phrase and agree with it too.. but i dunno why i always find myself alone in the room of mine crying at nitez over things that have become a fact.. nothing can change the fact.. nothing, right..?
the only way for me not to think of the unhappy things are to revise my work, do homework and play games.. sometimes, blogging makes me feel better.. online is another way out.. because chatting will help me slowly "drift" away from the current and into the conversation..
int he day, i try ways and means to make myself busy.. so that i can stop thinking of the problem.. even for a minute, will be good enough.. but what i can do at nitez just before bed time, when i am laying i bed...? almost nothing.. i can only close my eyers and TRY not to think of it.. but it was obviously of no use.. my mind will disobey me, and let my imagination run wild again..
why cant i just give up/ forget...? maybe te answer is because i don't wish to.. another possiblity is that something is holding me back..maybe sixth sense that you will realise how much i care and how much i dearly wanted us to be back like normal..? haha, arn't i silly..?
"all i want is to.............................................."

She Smiled At5:58 PM

"huimin, let me buy you an ice-cream"-you said to me.. i was so delighted because you actually approach me.."my eyes are filled with water because i was so touched.. but to realise that it was only a dream.. how good if i can stay in my dream and never wake up.. i want to stay in the sitution where you approach me instead of me approaching you.. why is it only a dream and not reality..? why must i wake up so earlier(although it had been half past ten in the morning)..? i even dream of you.. is it because i miss your accompany too much..? or is it just a normal dream..? i really wish to stay in my pleasent dream..
was rather tense up by the mini exam a few weeks later.. have been trying all sorts of ways to keep myself relax...
everyone have problem.. i know you cares.. you cares, right..? don't tell me this is only the wishful part of me.. i can't take another blow from the truth again.. i have been hurt over and over again by different people... the one who can make me smile is you, the one who hurt me the most is also you.. can we be like the past..? just hoping to know that at least you try to make this friendship of ours better... omg, my eyes is filled with water again.. i think i better stop here..
"wish that i can sleep and stay in this pleasent dream of mine, together with you, and never wake up..."

She Smiled At11:35 AM

"huimin, do we have any emaths homework?"-mary sms me.. i replied "no".. i thought that i have finish my homework for the weekend but i was wrong when mary inform me that we have emaths homework.. the funny thing is that mary, pei shan and i didn't know about this untill ling ling and sonia tell her during st.john yesterday..
"what had happened to me" i wonder.. why didn't i manage to see mr ang write the questions on the board..? is it because my whole mind is full of YOUR images..? or is it..? well, i seriously don't know..
went to claudia house today.. to get red packets.. haha, just kidding.. just kidding.. we(hong jun, zuan zhe, julian, jackson, zhi ning and i) plan to meet at jin guan's house before going to claudia house.. "no one is at home"shouted zuan zhe from inside jin guan's house when julian knock on his door.. obviously, they didn't welcome me n julian.. so we went off.. i was so..with mixed feelings, i sms zhi ning and told her that i will see her at claudia's house.. because we(julian and i) had decided to go straight to claudia house instead of going to jin guan's house first since they didn't want us to.. on the way, we saw jackson and we told him everything.. he insist that he will go to jin guan house to try and see whether he can get in or not.. the answer is yes.. he called me to go back to jin guan's house asit was zuan zhe playing a prank.. zhi ning, at the same time, sms me to apologise.. i knew that it wasn't zhi ning's fault..
actually, deep inside my heart.. i was more hurt than angry.. why are there always problems with friend surrounding me.. i was really very hurt that my good frenz actually play a prank on me.. tears was rolling down my red cheecks when i am on the way to claudia house.. why didn't they let me in..? is it that they didn't welcome me..? or is it like what zhi ning say: jin guan was bathing and the others don't have the key.. therefore didn't open the door...? what will they think of me when i just walked away..? petty..? idiotic..? why..? why..?
the current problem is not settled and another problem came.. pretended that nothing happen when they finally arrived at claudia house.. they didn't even say hello to us.. what on earth is happening to my frenz..? and i..? after a while, everything is back to normal.. at last, i am only left with one problem instead of two.. but, i will never ever forget how they treat me today.. and the problems will always be left unanswered.. until.... one day... if this happen again, and that i can't take it anymore.. i hope this day will never come..
back to HER.. why are you giving me cold shoulders..? or is it this is the true side of you, quiet..? i am thinking of you every now and then.. i always thought that every day is a new start and that there will be chance of you talking to me.. but.. what happen..? i am always the one approaching you.. why are our conversation always like i am lecturing you..? why am i always asking you questions and your part is only answering..? why can't it be the other way round..? don't you want to know how am i currently..? don't you want to know about me and my current situation.? don't you care anymore..? know you do, right..? or is it only the wishful part of me..?
"why have things end up like this..?"

She Smiled At9:36 PM

how should i start.. well, mrs quek didn't come today AGAIN.. but she had leave work with us.. AMAths was all about classwork and we went through some questons.. the "log" thingy had been driving us mad.. it seems like we are living in a forest full of "log".. haha.. next lesson was english.. went to com lab 4 to type our jounal topic on the total defence's play on wednesday.. recess was as usual.. with cheryl.. the last period of the day.. and for the week was physics.. omg, i almost cried when i get back my test paper.. i jus passed.. 10/20.. sob sob.. but 1 mark was added for the last question, so got 11 instead of 10.. still not so good.. must buck up.. then li hin, pei shan and i went to buy bubble tea during our 1 hour break.. manage to came back to sch only in 1/2 an hour's time.. went for choir.. and laughed a lot there.. cuz of miss tan.. haha..
here, i would like to thank yan ling for her encouring words in her comment yesterday..

haiz, didn't even manage to see her today.. not even during recess time.. wonder if she knows that i cherish and treasure this friendship a lot.. i have put in endless efoort and tie in this, but... des she knows that..? does she cares..? i didn't want to lose this special bond between us.. i will not give up..
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At4:27 PM

Evaluation on the play on wednesday(economic defence)
i acted as the role of the road runner. Firstly, i would talk about the strength in this play. I learn the importance of unity. Without it, the play would not be complete. People would only care about themselves and not be united as one. By then, the people in the props group would have to suffer and rush through the last minute amendment. i also learn that everyone has their own strength and weakness. Some are good in creative ideas, some are good at drawing. Others maybe good at acting, while others are good at narrating. Next thing is the spirit of the class. I could feel it when we all stayed back for the rehearsal. After the rehearsal, all of us stayed behind to help out in the doing of props. No one complain. I coulld really sense that everyone is putting in a lot of effort. WE all worked as a team towards the same goal.
I will continue saying the weakness of this play. I personallly feel that since the class could stayed back to help out the people doing the props, why can't they just look around to see if there are any litter around before they go? If there is, they should at least take the initiative to pick it up. If everyone is going to leave the venue(hall) without looking around, the venue(hall) would be full of litter, isn't it? Next thing i want to mention is the role i am playing. I should have blow the whistle louder to make a stronger impact of the "road runner". It would be like the "road runner" saying "beep, beep". i have asked around for opinions and people would say that the blowing of the whistle is too soft.
Finally, i want to conclude by thanking everyone for making the play so complete and a sucessful one. I had fun in acting the role as a "road runner" and i had a wonderful experience in working with different people. I had never regretted that i had to act out this role despite all the sweat and hard work. I feel contented when i hear appaluse from the ground. A fun and unforgettable experience.................

She Smiled At10:10 AM

"hui min, u looked so troubled"-miss chew told me this during social studies period.. do i really looked troubled...? well, nothing much happen today.. the same routine.. life was mundane..
pple said that i am carrying everything over my shoulders.. actually, i think so too... i am always giving myself too much stress and wanted to be as helpful and caring as i can to others, be it family members, friends, teachers or who ever... mayb i am being a busybody to some.. there are times i wanted to be not so "kpo".. as in not to help others... because whenever i offer help, some may say i care too much.. being very emotional, i find that perhaps i also had too much responsibility..(i'm sorry.. if i am wrong.. or being bhb).. maybe i should care lesser of what other people think of me.. i wanted to change for the better when i accept the feelings and the way people see me.. but i found out that i was wrong.. totally wrong..i live on this world for the sake of myself.. not for other people.. so why should i care about others' negative comments....leading myself to the path of unhapppiness...?
why can't i just be myself..? and stop caring about what others' say.. i jus cant.. maybe this is because i am too emotional... i am always surrounded by problems..... actually, i CAN just simply ignore the problem..but i realise i wasn't doing so.. i was, in fact, running away from problem.. i was afraid to know the outcome.. i fear that it would be a bad one.. i noe that this wouln't solve the problem... but i just can't help it.. i was afraid to face the fact... i was crying almost every night thinking of my problems, with friends and studies.. i thought i should have buck up my courage more... i finally told my HER how i feel about her.. i felt so relieve..
but this isn't the end.. i didn't know how SHE feel feels as she didn't express it out.. so is there any other method to help me know how SHE feels......?my mind is fighting with my heart..
my mind says that i should have let HER go the way she wants.. SHE have the right to choose.. anyway i still have other friends other than HER.. why should i care bout her.. and put in so much effort in this friendship.. when she don't even care..? or is it she cares..(i don't know because she didn't tell me or show it out wif action of caring for me)..?
my heart protested.. it says that i should preservance till the end.. and give out in this friendship.. SHE is still a very good friend of mine.. she cares.. just that she didn't show out as much as others do... in most friendship, when one give out.. the other will do the same too..
"is she worth it..? for me to put in so much effort without even knowing whether she cares a not.......? should i just treat her as a normal friend ever since...?"
i still havn't come out to the right decision.. but i think i will perservance.. because i just have more emotions and feelings than others do.. i just hope that she treat me as a good frenz of hers too... like this, my efforts will not go down the drain.. i am simply just hoping and praying to know how she feels....
"if you love something, let it go.. if it comes back to you, it was yours.. if it didn't, then it never was"
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At2:32 PM

"finally, everything is over...!" yeah, i think that the play put up today was not that bad after all...their is one part that i am actually quite relutant to do.. it is the shaking of heads as we ate the "estacy".. this is because we look so.. funny and it seems that something is wrong... but after this play, i found out that it was a good scene... luckily we have this part... because as we are shaking our heads... i could hear laughter from the audience..
"i just want to make them smile.. because seeing them smile makes me happy.."
well done, 3e3... and others classes that have been involved... thanks all for paying attention while we are on stage... thank you.. it is really very heart-touching to see 3e3 work as a team and the clapping from the audience.. now i realise everything..the hardwork, the stayback after school, the sweat... is worth it... after all, i feel proud to be in the play as i have tried my very best.. three cheers to 3e3.. hip hip hoorey.. hip hip HOOREY.. HIP HIP HOOREY!!!
the next topic on the list is me.. and my emotions.. feelings-some say....
getting more and more stress as days goes by.. there isn't much time left till the mini exam.. i will go on.. saying other things..
can any1 tell me is it true that we have to show our feelings towards the person we care...?
or how should we noe one cares for us if we aren't going to tell the person or show it out by action...? i nd to noe.. y can't pple jus forgive and forget.. y...?
"maybe it is time to let things go"
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At2:48 PM

it had been a log time ever since i blog.. well.. how should i start..?
i will first start by saying cny... how time flies.. cny is over.. erm, i am currently busy with homework and test.. and the play coming up tomorrow during upper sec assembly..
"if there are angels around, devils would also be present..."
thus, i agree that therewill be people cheering and clapping for us while others would give those sacastic comments.. since i have to play my part being a "road runner"... i will give my 101% effort in the play.. also, i must accept others' comment.. just hope that everything would turn out smoothly...
well, another 3 more weeks.. to be exact.. another 19 days.. to mini-exam.. the days are drawing nearer and nearer.. lessons in class is as per normal.. quite busy.. this is also one of the reason for not blogging that often...actually, i did blog yesterday..suprise that you didn't see my entry in my blog....? well, that's because i accidently pressed something.. and the whole thing was gone...
"what done cannot be undone"... so there is no use crying over spilled milk....
yesterday was a special day to tell your love ones, be it a friend, a teacher or a family member, how important they are to you...
"tell them before you regret..."action speaks louder than words.. show them that you care..
3e3.... was so united yesterday while rehearsing... well, was kind of shocked and glad.. it was so heart-touching...
today.. had audition... i mean choir...lalalala.. well.. getting to sing three piece of song on syf.. they are "carry me home", "sunset" and "visiting spring"... still not sure if i'm in syf or not.. the result will be pin on the choir notice board.. i think by tomorrow... i'm so eager to noe whether i am in syf or not...
feeling soconfuse these few days.. over the matter of friends... type of friends.. well, it seems that i am always surrounded by endless problems of the topic friend....
"if there's nothing missing in my life, then why do these tears come at night...?"
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At6:19 PM

yeah... chinese new year.... haha... goodies, red packets, gambling... haha.. my thoughts are all filled with all these... this year, i really have the new year "spirit"... it was so high.. well, first half of the day is spent in school... celebrations... haha... when return home, my house was full of... chinese new year songs... haha... in the afternoon, i slept...haiz... will not blog these fews days.. maybe after chinese new year..haha... i think tat's all... oh yes, li hin, pei shen and me have decided to exchange present for valentine's day.. haha.. later, i am going to my uncle's house..haha... i am so glad to act as road runner.. i will try my very best to act out my role well... haha...beep..beep...
"too excited that i have nothing more to blog.. waiting.."
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At2:41 PM

well..... 3 more days... 3 more days to the most exciting event that i have looking forward to... Chinese New Year... yeah, but then will have lots of "red packets"... haha... on valentine's day, there will be a geography "revision"... well, that's only the term... it's actually a test... haiz.. have to spent my sunday studying... valentine day is a day where we tell our love ones how they are important to us... why pple treat that day as a day for couples only..? actualy, this isn't tue... frenz can only celebrate together... y pple think th other way round..?
now, i am worry for my physics test... and my social studies test.. erm, we still have to study half day on tuesday.... first four periods are chemstry and physics... can anyone give me comment to what i blog yesterday..i am so disappointed as some of my frenz didn't understand what i have blog.... is it very badly done...?
"looking forward to the day..... chinese new year"
signing off-huiminz

She Smiled At11:57 AM

"i'm all alone in my little blue and yellow room... my sister is in her own room... my mind wonder away without me realising it... suddenly the song ' never had a dream come true' play inside me...this let me think of the past.. i can't turn back time.. nothing can change the fact...
"knock knock"..... i wonder who is at the door... for a moment.. i thought i shouldn't have open the door... i ran to my room and hide myself under the colourful blanket of mine...
it stop...oh my... it's not the knocking that have stop.. it was my heartbeat...for a moment, i couldn't found the place where all the things in my mind are stored.. my mind was blank.. i didn't know what to do when the door knocking becme louder..
"knock, Knock.... KNOCK....KNOCK.." oh my, should i open the door or should not...? my heart and my mind share different views.. they are having some sort of qurrelling before they came to the same decision... i could only hear my own breathing.. and they whispering to me... they insist that i shouldn't open the brown door...
finally, i was left alone.... with my sister... as i stare at the door.... i could feel my heart pounding out from my mouth.... the door open... i didn't dare to see... who or what is at the door..
"have you taken lunch..?" this voice sound so familiar.. i gradually open my eyes and see my mother right in front of me...."what happen..?"she questioned me..... i didn't know,so i kept quiet.. thinking of what really happen
"why didn't you open the door just now?"
"didn't you bring your keys?"
"yes, i did but my sister, meaning ur auntie, didn't"
"so..? is there any connection?"
"didn't you get my message that ur auntie is coming over"
now, then i remember that my mother had told me that my auntie is coming over..
so, i realise that it was my auntie at the door all along...
it was only my imagination that run wild.. thinking back, i am a little silly thinking of those kinds of "things" at the door....
i was still thinking about it when we were out having lunch... i chucked..
"what happen"my little cousin asked..
"nothing.."i replied..as i smiled the way through....

She Smiled At1:17 PM

"you guys must grow from soft to LOUD...." yes, we(the choir) have finally complete one of the syf piece entitled "sunset"... well, choir is getting more and more interesting each and every practice... don't ask me why.. haha.. and mis chan(choir instructor) is getting more and more strict with us.. well, maybe that's a good thing.. because only then, will we listen to her instructions.. we used to "bully" her in the past... haha.. today's english lesson was partly about "love, like, crush and attraction"...the interestng part is where we are given the script for the performance... WOW, that's realy funny... i bet that the audience would like it... later, we(pei shan, li hin, yan ling, si jia and i) are going toVCH for a choir concert.. wonder how it will be..
something had touched my heart... something... that let me feel so emotion.. my nick in msn yesterday was: "am i the only one on earth..? it seems like nobody cares bout me" i found out that i was wrong... pple around me do care(eg: wan ying, claudia, zhi ning, jin guan, julian.......... )
haha, so i am wrong... yesterday before going to bed, i read mr jae's blog... he blog that he was rather disappointed with 3e3.. mr jae, i'm sorry if i'm one of them... "swish, swish"sometimes, i could only hear the sound of the paper flipping.... feel the quietness in class...
today is the end of week fast... how time flies... oh yes, chinese new year is jus round the corner... haha.. so excited.. with the goodies and gambling and the red packets..haha...
well, had out physics test today.. hope i can pass... it seems so easy but i had a hard time figuring out what the question is looking for... no confidence at all... jus pray hard that i will pass this time round....
i was so shocked when wan ying came asking me where is her social studies textbook... i was so....anxoius and stress up because on tuesday, i help li hin borrowed the social studies textbook from her.... but i remember i had returned her the book..."so where is her socil studies textbook??' i search high and low.... but didn't manage to find it.. i blame myself... i went to locker and saw claudia.. she told me that she saw bariah taking wan ying's book.. i was kind of relieve when i get to noe the fact... but why is it with bariah.. then i realise that a fews days back, bariah didn't noe where she put her social studies book... she took wan ying's but didn't return... till ow, i'm still a little worried as i didn't manage to ask bariah is the book really with her or nor... what if it's not.. i'm going to die.. haha..
by the way, my problem with friends is currently solved... i think i gtg... blog again tmr..
"is wan ying's book with bariah..? i hope so..."
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She Smiled At4:30 PM

nothing much had happen.. well, oday i get to know what my mt teacher is thinkin... she said that after teaching 3e3 for 1 month, she found out that she is also at a diffult position.. she is trying not to give us homework.. but she can't as MOE has given a limited time to teach the topic.. in other words, i think she is also stress.. well, had a lot of "AMaths classwork, AMaths homework, EMaths homework, EMaths classwork".... haiz, why am i always surrounded by problems..? with stress, and work and frenz..? why..? after a problem is settled, another came... i hate this... oh no, there will be a phyiscs test jus tomorrow... and i am still preparing... CNY is coming... feeling so excited... but sad at the same time.. bcuz once CNY is over, there wouldn't be any more events that will be looking forward to.. life would be meaningless without an aim. lik a blind walkin aimlessly.... perhaps my next aim is to pass my mini exam..
frenz..i notice that not ony me have the problem, others have it too.. i dislike being ignore...
"if someone suddenly pull ur skirt up, would you be angry...? can this type of jokes be crack...?"
well, i need an answer to my question....
"i dun lik the present.. if only i can turn back time..."
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She Smiled At4:47 PM

hehe.. i was hoping that everyday would be a new start for everything.. but i realise that that i am doing the same things over and over.... again and again.. i found out that i led a mundane life... well, the physics test is just round the corner... not sure if i can pass or nor.. hope that the test is easy... well, i think my problem with friends is settled already...my msn nick: i'm glad that everything is back to normal... haiz... i think that i have a hard time hearing what physics teacher is saying... she sometimes didn't even complete her sentence..... then, she will jump to the next point... nd to pay extra attenton when she say reflection or refraction.. cuz her pronounciaton is.... sometimes i thought that she is talking about reflection but she was actually referring to refraction.. oh my... actually, i didn't want to blog about these(bad remarks on other teacher) but.. i can't stand it anymore..moreover, i am sitting right at the back.. sometimes feel like sleeping.. but have to keep myself awake...
maths, maths... emaths, amaths.. maths, maths... i love this subject but... it is driving me crazy... i will feel so angry if i didn't get the right answer after spending so many time at the particular question... well, there are no much time left... for us to take our mini exam..
acting... haha..not sure who is going to be the main characters... but right, there should only be 16 main characters but..because seveb drawf is one of the main characters.. there will be in total 22 main wan... wow, that's a lot.. almost half the class.. i think that the play on econmc defence is going to be interesting.. wahahaha.. let's wait for another 2 more weeks before the good show starts.. haha.. wonder if pple are going to pay attention or not...
"i am leading a mundane life, repeating the same routine every single day"
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She Smiled At4:21 PM

i am very stress............... oh my, it seems that there are endless things that needed to be done... homework.... I HATE STRESS.. i dun wanna live in this world full of sadness... stress.... i had enough... blogging may help me release stress as i had said out my fellings... feeling really down nowadays.. sometimes i wonder if i haven't come to this class, will i be stress.... after a few thoughts, i found out that the answer is still yes.. i am always giving myself stress... this got nothing to do with 3e3.... haiz.. feeling so terrible... had a hard time following the topics(at times)... test after test... results after results... now, i found out what i need most.... I NEED A BREAK.... although i can still cope with homework as it is done over a period of time....but... work work work... every now and then, i found myself surrounded by stress.... a lot of work left undone will let me feel uneasy...i dunno wat i am suppose to do now... i cant possibe cry out loud, isn't it........ that will only waste my time that can be spent revising or whatever.... the worse thing is the results... sometimes, i have try real hard, but the results didn't reflect my hard work... quite disappointed... now, over the weeks... i have learn how not to show my feelings in school... i am always left alone at home.. letting my imagination run wild... after all, i can't help it..
"i am very stress.. if only there is an angel to takeme out of this complicatedworld.. if only"
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She Smiled At2:13 PM

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