in mathematics equations:

positive plus positive equals positive.
positive plus negative equals negative.
negative plus negative equals positive.

if only my feelings can be transform into mathematical equation.
perhaps like this, my feelings will then be positive.
):
negative plus negative equals positive.

PLEASE WAKE UP!

yes, i'm emo.
yes, i have low self-esteem.
yes, i'm having mood swing.

alone.
signing off-huiminz

Labels: neither here nor there.

She Smiled At11:42 PM

Lyics
If I were blue, would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me, would you run with me
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

I WANT THIS SONG!
i just had no idea why i can't post it from youtube.
argh!

HUIMIN HUIMIN ALL THE WAY!
(:
i'm yet another day closer to exam and to holidays.
GO GO GO!

to love and to be loved.
~pure bliss~
signing off-huiminz

Labels: would you be there?

She Smiled At12:14 AM

full yet empty..

i was kind-of packed today.

initially, i thought i will have TP-BP mentor today.
yet i didnt recieve any news from them.
after which, kelly told me that TP-BP mentor will start at the end of june since the primary school kiddy are enjoying their holidays now.

oh well.
so i went to my cousin house 2hours earlier than as planned since there are no more TP-BP cca to attend to..

and and.
i watched "Priates of the Carribean" with my mummy, sister and two little chicky cousins.
(:
i stuck my butt on the seat for almost 3hours.wahaha.
the show was super nice.
(:
THUMBS UP!

my saturday was filled with activites.
yet..
i still feel something amiss..

perhaps it's him.
i miss my hongjun.
he's away to malaysia.
i feel weird without him smsing and call-ing and disturbing and abusing and bully-ingme.
LOLS.
and i wonder when we will next meet.
):

projects are piling.
my gosh.
monday: COMMSKILLS project discussion
tuesday: COMMSKILLS project discussion[if nt completed on mon]
wednesday: INTHT project discussion

i seriously need to find time to revise for my exams the week after next.
argh!

oh yes oh yes.
my sister got 2nd in class as well as in level in N.A.
(:
THUMBS UP!
and yingqi got 3rd in class too.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

i'm random today.

signing off-huiminz

Labels: full yet empty.

She Smiled At9:35 PM

It had been exactly a month since i started poly life.
23rd april 2007 marks my first day in Temasek Poly.
(:

at first, everything was on relax pace.
but as time goes by, tutorials and projects are piling up.

and now what?
exam are just round the corner.
indeed, the week after next.

everything is now on the fast-forward mode.

here are my exam dates:
MicroEconomics: 4th June
Organisational Behaviour: 5th June
Research for Hospitality and Tourism: 6th June

i just had my Business Computing Skills test on tuesday[as mention in my previous entry].
it was alright, i should be able to score well in this.
anyway, i had Communication Skills test and Introduction to Hospitality and Tourism test yesterday.
maybe i shouldnt go in depth about these two sujects, cuz i may become emo.
well well, what's done cannot be undone.
so i guess just let it be.

(:
everything happen for a reason.
thanks hongjun for making my day yesterday.

i just had dinner with atiqah.
oh, she just makes me really really miss secondary school.

alrights.
i better stop now.
i'll be good, and let my sister use the computer for now.
(:

i love the way you love me.
signing off-huiminz

Labels: fast pace.

She Smiled At8:59 PM

guess what?

so many people are in love with....
my phone!
that new samsung phone i got.
to be honest, i dislike this phone at first.
cuz i'm kind-of attached to my previous nokia phone, which belongs to my daddy at this moment.

because we love my phone.
that's why you can't blame me for the many many photos taken.
(:

today, i had my very first test in Temasek Poly.
it's Business Computing Skills.
more on excel test.
i'm still alright with this.
i'm more worried about tomorrow's test on Communication Skills and Introduction to Hospitality and Tourism.
(:
jiayous!

"guys don't like making promises, cause they are well aware of the consequences"
-another theory from the show 'mars versus venus'.

love is contradicting!
love can be wonderful, yet it can be something fearful.
love can make one's life complete, yet it have the power to destroy one's life.
love can be so sweet, yet there are bitter times.
love..

alrights.
enjoy the many many photos i took with my love ones.
(:

Labels: give the photos a chance to talk.(:

She Smiled At11:55 PM

does exam marks reflect how much effort one have put in?
i have seen that "killer" exam paper of hers.
i can't deny that this paper is rather challenging, but why this results?
):
pathetic marks.


i have tried my best.
i have make her cried like for a million times.
i have urged her to the mock tests i gave her.
i have praised her when she did well.
i have it all.
but still, i can't help but to feel at fault when she scored such results.
i would feel better if someone were to scold me.

i tutor my cousin from the start of this year.
it seems like she didnt improve.
instead, she did worst.

my auntie didn't blame me.
my auntie claims that she understand my situation.

but because of that silence, i feel more emo.
more guilty.
):

yes. it may not be my fault.
somehow, i feel that i should have that responsibility to find out what exactly goes wrong.
HUIMIN, WAY TO GO.
(:

-mood swing-

i was alright in school with my class, 1k04.
i was super high on the way back home with hongjun.
i nearly cried when i made my cousin cried over her mistake.
i hold back my tears while watching "mars versus venus"

promises are not meant to be broken.
signing off-huiminz

Labels: everything happen for a reason.

She Smiled At9:27 PM

what is today's date?
if i were to put the month first before the date, it will be 5.20.
(:

520 are numbers used to represent i love you.
cuz i love u in chinese is "wo ai ni",which have similar pronouniation as 520.
(:

love is in the air today.
well, not only today.
cuz everyday is filled with love.
(:

signing off-huiminz

Labels: love and be loved.

She Smiled At1:22 PM

some valuable facts to take away from OB tutorial today.
"misunderstanding arises due to the many different way pple percieve things.
solution to it is to share perception.(: "

tomorrow is CCN day.(:
1k04 will be selling home-made cookies, chocolate fondue and coke in a bottle.
*come on, thumbs up.*(:
in the first place, i wanted to help bake those cookies today at silas house.
yet, the fact that there will be too many people in the kitchen put off my initial thought.
so, me and shermaine and carmen went to do some-kind-of-banner for CCN day tmr.
(:
at least i helped out.

anyway, i feel so dumb.
awwwww..
exams are just around the corner.
and here i am, slacking.
i wonder where and how and when i am going to start.
another week will soon become a thing of the past AGAIN.

hongjun say i'm always so random.
yes, i am.(:

LEE HONG JUN, i'll never let you go.
(:

believe..
signing off-huiminz

Labels: going back on track.

She Smiled At11:22 PM

i have been deleting sentence after sentence, words after words.
i have completely no idea what i want to blog about.

at first, i'm really keen to come online and just update my blog.
but then i realise, i don't know have anything to blog about.
or should i say, i'm feeling too tired to blog about everything.
that's why it seems like i got nothing to blog about.

alrights.
my brain cell finally generate me some ideas of what to blog about.
((:

if there is a chance for you to steal something from me, what will it be?
claudia ask me this very interesting question the other day.
((:

life is full of ups and downs.

i think i better stop.
i don't know what i am typing.
signing off-huiminz

Labels: -blank-

She Smiled At11:12 PM

14th may 2007.
(:
it had been exactly 20years since my daddy and mummy got together.
how sweet isnt it.
(:

what exactly is love?
why does one cherish someone/something more when he/she have lost it?

the past is haunting me.
i seriously don't know what's wrong with me.
stop.
i don't wish to think about my ex and how we broke up.
please stop haunting me.
not even for another second.
stop controlling over me.
stop reminding me i'm useless.
shut up.

i need to do some self-reflection.

the ring around the finger.hongjun.(:
signing off-huiminz

Labels: mean what you say and say what you mean.

She Smiled At11:33 PM

i'm typing this whole text in a pretty abnormal setting.
blogger seems to be down with some problems.

oh well.
it doesn't rather matter so long as i still can post my entries.
(:

i'll start off with a quote that i find rather interesting, shall i?
yes, i shall.
LOLS.
the measure of love is to love without measurement.
(:

SPIDERMAN 3 was a great movie.
good vs bad.
"we have a choice and we can choose."
(:
and yeahyeah!
met up with the usual clique.
hongjun, zuanzhe, jinguan, brandon, jackson.
this time, i don't know why, julian and wengboh didnt tag along.
it's nice hanging around and crapping with them.
(:

did i mention about my cca in TP?
oh, i don't think so.
alrights.
for TP-BP mentor, i just got to attend first 3 consecutive mentor-ing sessions.
then, i'll be in.
cool!
i'm putting evps as my first choice.
(:

and i'm addicted to the 9pm show on channel 8 every weekdays.
"mars versus venus."
it's really interesting how gals and guys behave differently.
[aiya, i may skip a few episode cuz i'm tutoring my cousin.
):
awwww.]

alrights.
i better let my sister use the computer before she start screaming at me.
LOLS.

signing off-huiminz

Labels: my saturday.

She Smiled At11:39 PM

JIAYOUS!
(:

stress seems to be crashing.
but never mind, i just need to HANG ON THERE!
(:

i need to manage my time better.
i should re-organise some stuff, i guess.

it's into the third week of school, going to the forth week.
but i still seems so blur about everything.
blur about lectures.
blur about which tutorial requires printing of notes in advance.
blur about the many many projects and datelines.
blur about the environment.
blur about the tutors.
oh.

i think i better wake up.!!
WAKE UP!!

due to many many factors, i finally decided not to join the LRM Interest Group.
(:

and i have watched spiderman 1 yesterday, spiderman2 today and going to watch spiderman3 on saturday.
COOL.
i'm so looking forward to meet my guy frenz.
(:

shoo..
i better be off the computer.
got to do some serious work.

till then.
signing off-huiminz

Labels: motivated.

She Smiled At3:25 PM

test?

my sister asked me to do this test the other day.
oh well.
not really a paper of physics or chemistry or watever!
it's just some LAME test.

alrights.
You're supposed to get below 30 points in total tobe considered an angel [guai kia] n if its over..you are a DEVIL [pai kia]

1)smoked b4 []
2)drink alcohol b4 [x]
3)slept with someone of the opposite sex(not have sex) [x]
4)slept with someone of the same sex [x]
5)gotten into any fights [ ]
6)kissed someone of the opposite sex b4 [x]
7)kissed someone of the same sex b4 [x]
8)had someone in your room of the opposite sex [x]
9)scold vulgarities [x]
10)bought porn [ ]
TOTAL: 7

11)take drugs b4 [ ]
12)hate going to the doctors [x]
13)lied to your parents [x]
14)lied to a friend [x]
15)sneak out of the house [x]
16)done something illegal []
17)cut yourself [ ]
18)hurt someone [x]
19)wished someone to die [ ]
20)seen someone die []
TOTAL: 5

21) missed curfew [x]
22) stayed out all night []
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself []
24) been to a therapist [ ]
25) been to rehab [ ]
26) dyed your hair []
27) received a ticket [ ]
28) been in a wreck [ ]
29) been to a club []
30) been to a bar []
TOTAL: 1

31) been to a wild party [ ]
32) seen the Mardi Gras [ ]
33) had a fight []
34) had a spring break in Florida [ ]
35) sniffed anything [ ]
36) wore black nail polish before [x]
37) worn wrist bands [x]
38) wore t-shirts with band names [ ]
39) wore black eyeliner [ ]
40) own a 50 cent CD [ ]
TOTAL: 2

41) hugged someone of the opposite sex [x]
42) hugged someone of the same sex [x]
43) gone out with someone of the opposite sex [x]
44) gone out with someone of the same sex [x]
45) stole something [x]
46) been too drunk to remember anything []
47) blacked out [x]
48) fainted [ ]
49) had a crush on your neighbour [ ]
50) had someone else snuck into your room [ ]
TOTAL: 6

51) snuck into someone else's room [ ]
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex []
53) had gone and watched movies with friends [x]
54) dry humped someone [ ]
55) been called a sl*t [ ]
56) called someone a sl*t []
57) installed speakers in your car [ ]
58) broke a mirror [ ]
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house []
60) brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush []
TOTAL: 1

61) consider Mac,Dr Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper [ ]
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters [ ]
63) going out with friends to the mall [x]
64) skipped school [x]
65) had an eating disorder [ ]
66) had hurt yourself b4 []
67) gone to court [ ]
68) walked out of a restaurant without paying [ ]
69) caught something on fire [ ]
70) lied about your age []
TOTAL: 2

71) owned an apartment [ ]
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend [ ]
73) cheated with someone [x]
74) got in trouble with the police []
75) talked to a stranger [x]
76) hugged a stranger [ ]
77) kissed a stranger [ ]
78) rode in the car with a stranger [ ]
79) been sexually harassed [ ]
80) been verbally harassed [ ]
TOTAL: 2

81) met face to face with someone you met online []
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight []
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours [x]
84) watched TV for 12 hours straight [x]
85) been to a fair []
86) been called a bad influence [ ]
87) been cursed []
88) prank called someone [x]
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex [x]
90) cheated on a test [x]
TOTAL: 5

91) cheated on homework [x]
92) held hands with someone of the same sex [x]
93) wants to be dead []
94) cuts yourself b4 [ ]
95) hate yourself [ ]
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you []
97) had a crush on someone [x]
TOAL:3

OVERALL TOTAL:34points.

oh haha.
that means i'm a bad gal.
):
and hongjun got less than 30points.
can you believe it.

oh man, i'm a bad gal.
lalala~.

anyway, both my cute little cousins who are primary five are having their mid-year maths test TOMORROW.
i really really pray hard that my tutor efforts wouldn't go down the drain.
*pray pray*.

and yeah!
i'm have date tomorrow with my clique.
(:
yanling, sijia, jasmine, peishan and mary.
oh, how i miss them so.

groupings are out.
if any projects that require 6 in a group,
i'm with shermaine, hui lin, linda, carmen and edwin.
if any projects that require max 4 in a group,
i'm with shermaine, hui lin, linda, wan ting.
(:

we are in different schools. so trust is the word.

i know i'm blessed.
signing off-huiminz

Labels: bad gal.

She Smiled At11:45 AM

(:
yesterday, mrs yeo[our LRM course manager, as well as 1k04's care person] asked us some questions to get to know more about us.
one of the questions is "what is most valuable to you?".
my answer is "i value my family and myself the most".
(:
she asked me to elaborate why i love myself as it may sound as if like i'm self-centered.
the reason why i love myself is because:
i want to make a difference in others' life. so i have to love myself, in order to love others.
i'm very proud of myself, cuz i have made the first step into the optimstic life of mine.
if you asked me the same questions, let's say last year, my answer will be my family.
i wouldnt mention myself.

i LOVE my family.(:
i LOVE myself.(:
i LOVE my frenz.(:
i LOVE my life.(:

i had family gathering tonitez.
it's simply great.
i want more of these.(:

Labels: love myself so as to love others.(:

She Smiled At11:52 AM

here are just some photos of my new frenz.
not really new. cuz we have been in same class for 2weeks.
(:
oh man, time flies.

Labels: to love is to cherish.

She Smiled At11:05 PM

at first, i thought he was angry at me.
):
it was really scary though..
so, it was his headache that was pissing him off.
NOT ME.
(:
phew..

Labels: first misunderstanding.

She Smiled At12:41 AM

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